Chapter – 10 

In the moment I hated myself. I had run up to my room and was now crying unceasingly, unaware why. I had no specific reason to and yet, I couldn’t stop the stray tears that were rolling down my cheeks.

Many times in life, we encounter situations that are so tangled that our emotionally damaged selves fail to process it and that leads to unexpected outbursts of emotions that we can neither explain nor understand. It is in those moments that we feel loneliest, unable to understand ourselves and the people around us with the only consequence of hurting ourselves and hurting them.

Not that I had only one reason to get frantic about, I had countless, I just couldn’t decide where to begin the counting. I had always been an emotionally sorted person, I took problems one by one but I had been overburdened this time.

I wasn’t left alone for too long with my tangled self, soon a knock resonated in my room.

The door ever so slowly opened and Hayden peeped in.

“Is it okay if I come in?”

I wiped the traces of the tears from my cheeks and nodded.

Hayden was carrying a plate with him, “I brought you a sandwich.”

I did not let the fireworks that were exploding inside me at the mention of my sandwich project on my face. He handed me the plate and sat on the bed, maintaining generous distance between us, and I knew why. I took a bite of my sandwich and was ecstatic with its savory taste on my tongue.

But Hayden’s serious disposition made me forget all about the sandwich and my gaze was fixed on his face.

He opened his mouth and the closed it again, with his doubts and a tone laced with hesitation he said, “Look, Jake. What happened last night, I did it because I wanted to and I had believed up till this point that it was what you had wanted too, but if it’s not, I won’t even come near you again. I am not that guy.”

He stood up to leave but I interrupted him.

“Its not that I didn’t want to, I just don’t understand why did you do it? It’s not like you’re gay, I know about the endless girls you have dated.”

Hayden seemed stuck in time, with his frozen hands and his frozen expression. After what felt like an eternity he ran his finger through his hair and fell back on the bed.

“If I were not gay, why would’ve I had done what I did last night?”

“To make fun of me?” Hayden sat upright immediately and brought his face closer to mine, narrowing his eyes he said, “Do you honestly believe that the whole world revolves around you? I almost had sex with you last night! And you think I did that to make fun of you? What is the matter with you?”

“I… I j-jus…” Before I could stammer any more words out Hayden got even angrier, “You look at me like I am the jerk, but it’s you who’s actually the self centered one. I did what I did because you were acting like a bitch in heat. Masturbating every night, moaning my name, I heard it all. And I tried to control myself, to forget but then, there you were, in my bed!”

My eyes started watering, again.

I hated, loathed, abhorred this person who was sitting on my bed. He went on and he would’ve gone on and on, I believe if I hadn’t said, “Get out.”

“What?”

“Get the fuck out.”

Hayden scoffed and said, “Gladly.”

He angrily slammed the door and left me wondering, what was he angry about? I had just asked him a simple question. Shared my reservations.

I buried my face in my pillow and hoped for everything to just go away.

Major shoutout to UTAZMIOH for her wonderful message which motivated me to write this. 

I am so sorry for another short chapter but this scene had to end here! I will try and update ASAP, it depends if I got into the University whose results are today! So, panicking

On a happier note, I think I will have reached 250 subscribers by the next episode and unlock ink! 

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