I know you guys probably heard this a million times but . Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem . I personally have had a few attempts on my life . But the one that made me realize that my problems are temporary happened June 27 , 2018 . I tried to OD but I obviously failed . But I came to terms with the fact that since I failed that must be for a reason. After I took the pills about 2 hours after , I regretted it I realized that if I die now I will never be able to do any of the things I wanted to do like travel to Tokyo, have kids , move to a house near a forest, get a snake , etc. I wouldn't be able to do any of that and all my problems would end soon . Once I turned 18 all my problems would end because at that point I would no longer be in that abusive environment. It took a lot to get to the point were I realized that. But i'm glad I did or I would never have met my mom and dad ( My foster parents ) and I would have never met my 3 little sisters , my little brother, and my older sister ( foster siblings ) . I love my foster family to death and if I would have succeeded that day I would have never met them.

My advice to those of you who believe suicide is the only option , please .... I beg you you , please think of what you want your future to be . Think of all the things you could miss out on . Think of all the people you love , all the people who love you , all the people who would cry for you . Please don't ever try to kill yourself . Please don't hurt yourself , I may not know any of you personally but I would be devastated if I heard about any of you killing yourself .

I will be here if you need someone to talk to if you are getting to that point .