warning this chapter may be triggering for some read at your own discretion

Don't tell me how to feel words can't simply just changed how I feel you telling me how to feel only makes me feel as though I don't have a right to feel that way you telling me to feel a certain way only makes me hate myself because I don't I come to you for help so please don't tell me how to feel

Don't tell me how to feel you may be wondering why these are words I need to say and why this is something I need to get out of my head out of my mind so were my anxiety can't use it against me that's because the medication manager I had been seeing left so I had to start seeing another one I tried I tried to open up to this new person I didn't know this person I wasn't comfortable with yet but immediately I felt angry and irritated because he tried to tell me how to feel you can't bring someone into a room and tell them that you read a lot about them and that you see that they've been struggling and then tell them not to stress not to worry and that that would help anxiety if you know that I'm struggling if you know what I've been through why can't you understand why I feel the way I do why I have the worries I do instead of telling me to try and feel differently I can't just say I want to feel happy and suddenly I'm the happiest person on the planet if it was that simple I would not be coming to your office to be on a medication to help me feel as though every day I live is not a living hell so I can have a moment of Peace when a worry doesn't run through my mind so if you know I'm struggle if you know what I've been through if you know how I feel why why when I asked you about a medication why would you tell me that I definitely need it why would you make me feel like that why would you make me feel worse about myself than I already do than I already have you're supposed to help so why why would you not try and understand me and make me feel comfortable enough to open up to you instead of making me feel judged and worse about everything why why would you tell me how to feel please please just don't that's the one reason why I was scared to go to therapy why I was scared to do all this to begin with so please just don't tell me how to feel