Trigger - PTSD AND A PANIC ATTACK
Nio bit his lip and waited a few hours before creeping around the building. He flew up to their window and carefully slid it open. He slipped the note onto the desk and grabbed a bag of his stuff. He looked back at Jay's sleeping face and turned away. His eyes filled with tears as he climbed out the window and slid it shut.
Nio jumped off the wide and landed on the sidewalk,walking away from the building. He walked deeper into the city and went to a hotel. He paid for a room and flopped on the bed once he got there. He curled up in the bed and cried. "I'm so fucking useless." He thought to himself and numbly walked into the bathroom.
He stared at the mirror and punched it. It shattered and cut his knuckles. He stared at the blood dripping down and wrapped it in a bandage he found. He cussed silently to himself and found a need to fight. He sighed to himself and put on his exercise clothes. Nio walked out of the hotel and walked to a small arena. Nio signed up for a fight and sat in the bleachers.
This place was cleaner than the ones he was held captive and it seems like they didn't capture people here. He glanced to the man on his right and pulled out his phone. He played on it and got hit with frantic texts form Mira. She was saying that Jay was in her room crying and that Nio was one forever. Mira tried calling him but he turned off his phone and looked up.
It was about to be his fight and he put bandages on his other hand to protect his knuckles. He stood up and walked to the ring. They called for him and he stepped in, looking at his opponent. He smiled at him as they shook hands. "Remember, clean fight. Loser taps out, release them." The announcer said and they heard the bell.
Nio watched as the man flexed his shoulders and kicked Nio with lightning speed. He gritted his teeth and rolled under him. He whipped around and tucked in his elbows as the man turned to face him. He threw a flurry of punches, multiple hitting the man square in the nose. The man panted, sweat dripping down his face and into his eyes.
Nio danced aorund him, his arms up ready to block. Nio started to wear him down and soon had him in a choke hold. The man tapped out and Nio was pronounced the winner. He smiled and waved goodbye, leaving the arena. He powered on his phone and an influx of messaged started coming in. He sighed and returned Mira's call. "Yes?" He sad impatiently.
"GOD DAMMIT NIO. WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU? GET BACK HERE THIS INSTANT." Mira screamed into the phone and he got a few odd looks from passerby. The sun was starting to come up as he was walking back to the hotel. "I'm safe." He said interrupting Mira's stringing of cuss words. "BOY. THERE ARE PEOPLE TO WANT TO KILL YOU. I AM INCLUDED." She yelled and he held the phone away from his ear.
He sighed and got out his key for the room. Nio walked into the room, Mira still screaming about who knows what. Nio sighed and intterupted her yet again. "Look I'm still in the city. I'm safe god dammit. I know Jay is listening. I can hear him and the REST OF THE FUCKING GANG IN THERE." Nio said and yelled the last bit. Luckily the walls were thick.
Mira yelped and immediately ended the call. Jay sighed and rubbed his eyes. "He fucking said he wasn't gonna come back." He whispered and Mira sighed. "Let me see it." She said and he handed her the note. "Dear Jay, I am sorry I have caused you so much fucking trouble. Please just move on. If I come back I'm gonna end up hurting you more. Love, Nio." Mira stayed quiet for a bit as everyone took in the words.
"I-" Mira shushed him and tucked Jay under the covers. "We will get him back." She said and let him fall asleep. "Ok, I have access to all the hotels. Let's get cracking." She said with a grin and they filed out. Mira softly closed the door and went to the data bases. "Hmmmm." She mumbled to herself and typed in the name Nio. "Hilton." She said with a smirk and cracked her knuckles.
"Marlo go down to the Hilton on fifth street." She said Marlo nodded. He quickly made is way down there. He knocked on the door and Nio called form inside the bathroom. "JUST A MINUTE." He yelled and walked to the door. "Yes-" He stopped after seeing who it was. "God dammit." He mumbled as Marlo looked at him sadly.
"Fuck it." Nio mumbled and got his stuff together. He checked out and Marlo took him back to the HQ. He started to get anxious as they walked towards Mira's room. "He should be awake now." Marlo said. It had been about and hour since he started walking to the Hilton.
"Aren't you excited?" Marlo asked opening the door. "No. He is going to kill me." Nio squeaked out and timidly walked into the room. Jay looked up. "Hey Mira-" He stopped seeing who it was. "This was a bad idea." Nio whispered and started backing away. "NIO. STOP BEING SO FUCKING SCARED ALL THE TIME." Mira yelled and Nio's eyes started to fill with tears.
"This was a huge mistake." He mumbled and turned dropping his bag and running as fast as his legs could take him. "WHAT THE HELL MIRA." Marlo yelled and she blinked. "Oh shit." She said her eyes widening. "I- I just." Marlo shut her up as Jay ran after Nio. "WAIT." He screamed as Nio made his way to the roof. Hed felt the brisk autumn air in his lungs s he hyperventilated. "Fucking..... useless." He whispered to himself and fell to the gorund, his legs collapsing.
Jay barreled through the door and pulled Nio into his lap. "Weak, weak, weak." Nio mumbled and laughed bitterly. His pupils were huge and he was twitching. "Useless. Too girly. Too weak." He whispered to himself over and over as Jay's face fell. Nio didn't seem to realize that someone was holding him as he yelled and tried to walk to the edge.
Jay yanked him back and made sure to have a firmer grasp on his arms. Nio howled in pain and started sobbing, mumbling incoherent words. Jay rocked him. Nio started to calm down when Jay realized his nails were digging into his thighs. He was bleeding. Jay carefully grabbed Nio's hands and pulled them from his thighs. Nio hung his head in shame and was crying silently. He shivered.
Jay kissed his head and picked his limp body up and carefully carried him back to the dorm. He set him on their bed and wrapped him up like a burrito. Nio fell asleep but moaned multiple times. He kept repeating the words that he said on the roof and Jay watched him intently until he woke up.
Nio gasped and looked around wildly. Jay started to soothe him. "You aren't mad?" Nio asked bewildered as Jay undid his burrito or blankets. "No, I was worried." He said softly and when Nio got his arms free, he wrapped them around Jay. Jay smiled and hoisted Nio around his waist. Nio looked at him. "I'm sorry-" He whispered and Jay stopped him.
"God dammit Nio, you did nothing wrong. I made a mistake. I did the wrong thing. I know it's gonna take you years to realize this but not everything you do is your fault." Jay whispered and hugged Nio tighter, tears filling his eyes. "Don't ev- ever say th- that you are useless. Broken. Whore. Too girly. Or weak." Jay finished, his voice breaking.
Nio hiccuped and shoved his face on Jay's neck. "Nio, you are the most intelligent, sassy, independent, un-broken person I have ever had the pleasure of meeting." Jay said and Nio giggled. It was muffled but Jay smiled, hearing it. "I mean it." Jay said and lifted Nio's head. He kissed it softly, wiping away Nio's tears.
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