I walked a little further down the hall until I came up on Stephs door. “Is it ok if we talk this out in your room? I would hate if we got interrupted.”

“Sure.” I barely heard it even with the ghost-quiet hallway. Slowly I jiggled the knob of her door, and pushed it softly gaining access. I had been in here one time before, and I still admired the hot pink walls. I loved and admired how totally feminine everything was. Her bed was a shade of lilac and the posters that dotted the walls were all from cheesy romance movies as well as boy bands. Stephanie stepped in further, and I turned to lock the door. As it latched I felt a swell of fear, what if I had permanently ruined things between us? Was Liz right, was it really as simple as she had said it was. I took in a deep breath, and as I let it out I steeled myself for what was to come. This wasn’t some stranger, this was someone I had spent late nights on the phone with, the woman I had shared a some of the most amazing nights with, and most importantly the woman who had said she would be with me through anything.

“Look Stephanie, earlier I was scared. I wasn’t sure what to do, but now I do. I love you, and I was scared to admit just how far I wanted to go with you-.” I paused unsure of how to say what I needed to. “I wanted to go further whenever we stopped kissing, but I stopped myself. I was scared that I would push things too far and break everything we had worked up too. Look all I am saying is that I want want to be with you, I want to hug you, kiss you, and most importantly I want you to be my first. I want us to take each other’s virginities. I love you Stephanie Doss!” She looked at me stunned and burst into another round of crying. I did it. I ruined everything. She hates me. I took a couple steps back until my back hit her bedroom door, and I felt my legs tremble. This was it, our last moments as a couple. In a single night I had not only mortified myself, but I sacrificed the single most important relationship in a moment of cowardice. I felt tears forming in my eyes as I come to terms with the fact that she would probably never want to see me again.

“I-I can’t tell you how relieved I am to hear those words. I was so worried you had gotten bored of me. Whenever you said you wanted to go to sleep I thought you were done with me.”

“Never, I was just scared that you wouldn’t want to take the next step. Hell I was so turned on earlier that I-. You know what, never mind.”

“What did you do?” Stephanie asked taking a few steps closer to me.

“We-well you see, after the kissing I was really really turned on. The blanket you had given me had your smell all over it, and um-I-um kinda started touching myself to it.” I turned away blushing, and also trying to avoid whatever look she was going to send my way. I wasn’t prepared to be laughed at for what happened earlier.

“Did you now?” Steph asked taking another step closer to the door. She was standing right in front of me, and I tried my best to avoid her gaze. I just stood there for a minute listening to her slow breathing. The silence was ended by the slam of her palm against the door way. Her other hand went to my chin, and I stood there with my gaze fixed on her hazel eyes. Half a breath passed between us before her lips fell onto mine. My body was pressed firmly against the oak door. The raw lust that she was projecting to me through her mouth was undeniable, and the only way I knew how to respond was to fight back. I may be tentative, but I pressed forward repressing my worries. I enjoyed the salty-sweet taste her mouth provided me as we continued our exchange.

She was the first to moan as she pulled away for a moment before diving in for another kiss. The lewd noises coming up from her throat were driving me crazy. My hands started to explore her sides as I lightly pressed her into me. She complied, and moved closer placing a leg in between mine. I felt lecherous as the urge to pulled her clothes off and explore every nook and cranny her body had to offer me was overwhelming. My hands moved from her sides to just under her shirt. I rested one of my thumbs inside her belly button, and she pulled away slightly giggling. I pressed another kiss onto her smiling face, and slowly moved my hands upward. My fingers trembled as they came into contact with her bra. I had never been this close to a woman, and I couldn’t help but feel giddy.

I was in the bedroom of the woman I loved and we were engaged in one of the most intimate things we had ever done together. It almost felt like a dream. Had I actually fallen asleep on that couch, and began dreaming of the best case scenario. No, this was real. It was really real. I slipped my fingers inside of the lace bra going up the valley of her breasts, and I could feel the pulsing of her heart beat. Then I moved my hand to the side and met her soft boob. Its softness was contrasted by the firmness of her nipple. I hadn’t ever really done anything like this, but I gave it a slight squeeze. Steph purred as my fingers swept across her pebbled nipples. I quickly ran into an issue. I didn’t have enough room to actually work the way I wanted to. I slowly broke away from our kiss, much to my displeasure. “Would it be ok if we both took off our shirts and stuff?” I asked feeling my already blushing cheeks darkness more. Stephanie only replied by swiftly shedding her shirt. I stood silently admiring the natural curves to her body. She was wearing a light pink lace bra, and it was perfectly holding her plump boobs. I bit my lip as I slowly unbuttoned my shirt. I did it slowly, all the while maintaining eye contact with her. I wanted to see every reaction she could give me.

I will only get this night once and I want to make damn sure I remember it well. The last of the buttons popped through it’s hole, and I let it fall onto her carpet. I had never been this vulnerable in front of someone before, but instead of anxious I felt calm. It was almost surreal. I moved away from the door, and went right up to Stephanie. Her body was perfect, and I lost all forms of control as we went into another round of kissing. My hands traveled up her back and to the straps of her bra. In one swift motion I undid the clasps and we were standing there. My lips on hers with her chest exposed. I swiftly cupped them, taking in the way my fingers press into them. The way her body would shudder as my fingers lightly twisted and tweaked her nipples. I needed more, and in a moment of confidence I trailed kisses to her neck. I moved her backwards, and lightly pushed her body onto the light pink covers.

“Steph, are you really ok with us doing this?” I asked looking down at her.

“Jenny I am completely sure that I want us to do this. I have been wanting us to be doing this for a while, and I am so happy that we are finally ready to do this.” I gave a nod, and climbed onto the bed. My body resting above her gave me perfect access to her chest. I gave a quick peck to her lips before slowly kissing and sucking my way down to her nipples. My lips fell around the erect nipple and I began to suck slowly. The moans that were coming from her were all the encouragement I needed to continue. After a few minutes I pulled away, and a trail of saliva was all that connected me and her right nipple. I quickly turned to give the left one the same treatment. As I started to suck I noticed something new. Steph had started grinding her hips onto my knee. I stopped focusing on her breasts and kissed down her stomach.

My hands traveled to the hem of her basket ball shorts. I lightly pulled them down and began kissing her upper pelvic. She twitched in anticipation as I pulled her shorts completely off of her and discarded them where my shirt was. Her panties went with them, and we laid there together on her bed panting. I slid off my pants as well, and I stopped to admire the woman I love. Her body’s curves were beautiful, and I bit my lip as she examined my body. In that moment I didn’t feel a shred of embarrassment. In that moment I was happy she could see me fully in my vulnerability. I snaked my hand onto her stomach and moved it the length of her body. I memorized every subtle curve, and leaning in our lips met again. This kiss was more passionate than before, and without me realizing it, I had started cupping her heat. Her hips were rocking onto me. It felt so satisfying to know that she wanted this as much as I did. She moved her hand to my core, and in a moment of rhythm we both picked up the pace. She was so slick and I and my fingers barely avoided dipping inside of her. I wanted to tease her a little more. I press my thumb into her clit and she breathed out my name. My stomach fluttered at her calling out my name. I dipped my index finger into her and instantly she clamped down onto me. My legs squirmed in excitement. She responded my dipping her finger into me as well, and my stomach flopped as I felt myself doing the same thing to her finger. My head dropped into the crook of her neck, and I peppered it with kisses.

Our pace only quickened as she dipped her middle finger inside of me as well. I almost came right there. The feeling of her grinding inside of me felt so amazing. I added another finger as well and she pulled me into a tender kiss. After a while our pace became erratic and I could feel my body increasing in pressure. A pressure that had Stephanie as the only one who could relieve it. We both cried out as we came together. My fingers were still inside her twitching body as we both slowly rocked throughout our high.

After we had both calmed down, I took a moment to pull the covers over us. She let out a sigh as I rested my head back into her shoulders. The experience was incredible, and Stephanie made it better as she pulled me flush against her. “Stephanie, I love you. That was… that was amazing,” I said breaking the silence.

“Yeah it was, I can’t believe it actually happened. A few hours ago I thought you hated me and now we’re lying here together. I love you so much,” She said flashing the biggest smile I had ever seen. The brunette looked so gorgeous with her disheveled hair, and the hickies I had left all over her neck. “You know your freckles are so adorable.” She brought her thumb up to my cheek and stroked it lightly. I let out a giggle as I stared into her eyes. She had never been this open to touching me. I wonder what else would change from now on. We laid there cuddling for what felt like the entire night and just talked. We talked about the big things, like what college we wanted to go to next year, what we wanted to do after we graduated. We talked about finding an apartment together. We even talked about her coming out to her parents. From what she has told me, it would be a huge step for her to actually confront her parents. We shared more tonight than we ever had before, and I loved it. I didn’t understand how I went from fucking everything up to share the most intimate moment of my life with the woman I love. One thing was for sure though, I was ready to do my best for her. She fell asleep first, and I loved the way she would lightly snore. Pressing a light kiss against her nose I closed my eyes and drifted to sleep with her.