Read Smoking (old) :: Grudges

"GOD DAMMIT COULD YOU JUST BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY I DIDN'T DO IT." I yell, tears filling my eyes. "Not when it's a lie. I trust mom and dad more than you." He says and I walk up to him. "WHO HELPED YOU FALL ASLEEP ALL THOSE NIGHTS. WHO TOOK CARE OF YOU WHEN OUR PARENTS WERE TOO DRUNK TOO. WHO PROTECTED YOU." I scream and push him.

"As if you can beat-" "STOP." Rose yells. Her lip is quivering. "Oh Rose it's ok. Let's leave now." Jack says rushing over to her. I just wipe my eyes and go back into the room, not bothering to look back. Nole stands up when I motion for him to move. I grab my phone from the desk and stick on my shoes.

"Don't bother looking for me." I mutter and stalk out of the room. Jack is still trying to calm Rose. I just walk by them and climb out the window jumping onto the fire escape. It rattles as I land and walk down it. I flip off the bottom and land on the ground. It looks to be about 6 at night. I shove my hand sin my pockets after putting in my earbuds.

I hum along to the music and walk aimlessly though the campus. "DAMIEN." I hear someone yell and I pop an earbud out of my ear. Luci is running towards me with her phone open. "LOOK JACK RECORDED YOU." She yelled and I blinked. "Excuse me." I whispered and grabbed her phone.

I'm sitting there with my eyes closed singing alone with my guitar. "God dammit." I mutter and bite my lip. "MY LIFE GETS BETTER EVERY MINUTE." I yell and starting laughing. "Uh.." Luci says and grabs my arm. She pulls me to the med ward where Roberts looks confused on why tears are streaming down my face.

"I think he just had a mental breakdown." She said softly and he sighed telling her to sit me down. My laughs turn into sobs as I curl up on the couch. When someone try's to touch my shoulder I smack their hand away. "Rose is gone. Gone gone gone." I mutter and Luci sits in front of my face. "Damien it's ok. She still loves you." She says softly and wipes my tears away with her thumb.

"Don't give up just yet." She whispers and pulls me into a hug. "Luci what am I going to do." I whimper and she sighs. "I don't know, I don't know." She mumbles into my hair, rocking me back and forth. I calm down and climb out of her lap. "Foods ready." Roberts calls softly. We walk over and Luci eats with us.

"Did Nole leave?" I ask quietly. Roberts shakes his head and points to my room. "Oh.." I mumble and stand up, bringing him a plate of food. "Here." I say and hand him a plate, sitting next to him on the bed. "Oh uh thanks." He stutters and I just smile. "Sure thing." I say smiling. "I can't let a.. friend starve." I keep my eyes on my food as I say that.

I hear him suck in a breath and hear him gobbling the food down. I blush and finish my food. "Thanks." Nole says and I look up. "You already said that." I say and giggle. He just crosses his eyes and sticks his tongue out. I smile and grab a pickle from my plate and stick it on his tongue.

"EW." He yells and spits it out. "Hahahaha." I laugh and he stares at me. "Honestly I'm glad I got you to laugh." He mutters, his smile growing. "Wait- did say that out loud." He mumbles and I laugh. "Golden boy is-. God dammit I can't think of a pun." I grumble and he just chuckles.

"I'mma call you.... Swole Nole." I say and he glares at me. "I didn't agree to it." He says and I just grin running out. "NOLE'S NEW NAME IS SWOLE NOLE." I yell and Luci bursts out laughing. Roberts just looks pitifully at Nole who walked out. "Bud, you might want to run." He says to Nole. I just grin and run back into my room, finding a big black sharpie.

"PIN HIM." I shout and Luic grabs his arms. I giggle and uncap the sharpie. I drag over a chair and stand face to face. He trys to get away but I just grin, grabbing his face with my hands and scrawling SWOLE NOLE on his face with my loopy handwriting. Roberts is laughing as I jump down from the chair and hide the marker. Luci lets go of him.

He gasps in the mirror and runs at me. He tackles me and holds me on the ground. "OH PLEASE NO OH GOLDEN BOY SWOLE NOLE. PLEASE DON'T HURT ME." "He changes his mood so fast." Luci mutters to Roberts. "I uh may have given him some pills." He whispers to Luci. She gasps but starts to laugh when she sees me on the floor.

"Hmm what should your nickname be Damien..." Nole says and cackles. HE CACKLES. "NOTHING." I squeak out and I blush at how my voice came out. I blush and he just laughs. "Squeaky Pete than." He says and I glare at him. "I swear Swole Nole-" He presses his hand over my mouth and uncaps the sharpie.

Luci smiles evilly and Nole writes the words on my face. I bite his hand right when he's done. "OH SHIT." He yells, bouncing off me. I just laugh and speed away. I gasp for a breath and flop on my bed. "SUPERCALAFRAJALISTICEXPEALIDOCIOUS." I yell remembering Mary Poppins.(IDK IF I SPELLED IT WRITE OH GOD) Nole runs in and flops next to me.

"Can I sleep with you?" I ask and immediately cover my mouth. "WAIT I DIDN'T MEAN IT LIKE THAT." I squeak out and he just chuckles. "I know." He says and I blush. "Oops." I mumble and hide my face in the pillows. "DAMIII." I hear someone call. "Huh??" I ask, sitting up confused. I see Roberts yelling at someone and Rose sobbing, calling out my name.

"ROSE?" I yell alarmed and jump off the bed, speeding to her. "DAMI SOME BOYS TRIED TO KISS ME." She sobs and runs towards me. I kneel down and pick her up. "It's ok, it's ok." I whisper and see Charlotte talking with Roberts. "Elly was having some friends around and they tried to kiss Rose." She explained to me. "You are talking to me?" I ask confused.

"Look I know I've been a bitch. I broke up with Elly because she cheated on me. She and Jack twisted the stories about you. I should have believed you." She says and tears fall down her face. "Char come here." I whisper and pull her into a hug. "I know what love does to you. Truly I do. Our relationship isn't gonna be the same but I hope it's stronger." I say and she nods.

"I know. I feel terrible and that isn't whats going to fix our relationship. I am." She says and I smile. "So wait- was Jack there?" I ask and she nods. "He and Elly didn't do anything. Some of them tried to come onto me too but I grabbed Rose and ran." I nodded and my soft smile turns into a frown.

"Keep Rose clam- don't mention what's on my face. Oh but read what's on Nole's and tease him about it." I say and give Rose to Charlotte. Rose sniffles and looks at me with wide eyes. "Rosie Posie I am going to beat the snot out of our brother because he is a terrible person." She nods and Roberts calls them over to make sure they are alright.

"Can I come?" Luci asks texting Aaron. 'Sure." I say and we walk out to the dorms. Aaron is waiting for us and I storm in Jack's room. He and Elly are laughing with their friends. "JACK." I yell and he smirks. "What." He asks in a snooty voice. "SHE IS A FUCKING LITTLE GIRL JACK." I scream and grab the collar of his shirt. He laughs nervously.

"Like you can-" I shut him up with and punch to the face. I knee his groin and he falls, moaning in pain. "Don't touch Rose or Charlotte ever again." I growl, squatting down to his eye level. I stand up and walk out of the room. Luci and Aaron quickly follow. "Well I don't think they will mess with us anymore." Aaron says smiling.

"You wanna hear something funny." Luci says and starts telling Aaron about what's on my face. I roll my eyes but smile as she tells the story. We get back to the Med Ward and Rose jumps into my arms. I smile and kiss her forehead. "So it's almost summer break." Nole says nervously. I just nod. "Good lord this year has gone by quick." I say and they all exchange glances.

"You were asleep for a looottt of it." Luci says and I just flick her head. "Eh, I'll accee my exams." I say with a wink and Rose giggles. "Well anyway, can we sleep." I say yawning. They all agree and Rose begs to stay with my for the night. "Sure." I say happily. "Dami, can you sing me one of the songs after I take a shower?" She asks and I smile telling her yes.

"What song you gonna sing?" Nole asks, nudging me. I shrug and take a shower in the extra bathroom. "Hmm how about... yellow?" He suggest and I smile. "Yeah, she loves that song." I say enthusiastically as she comes bounces onto the bed."YAY." She yells and I kiss her cheek, tucking her in next to Nole. "I'm like a parent." I mutter and Nole chuckles. "Staahhpp." I say but a grin is on my face. I play the instrumental track on my phone and start to sing.

"Look at the stars

Look how they shine for you

And everything you do

Yeah, they were all yellow

I came along

I wrote a song for you

And all the things you do

And it was called "Yellow"

So then I took my turn

Oh what a thing to have done

And it was all yellow

Your skin

Oh yeah your skin and bones

Turn into something beautiful

Do you know

You know I love you so

I swam across

I jumped across for you

Oh what a thing to do

'Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line

I drew a line for you

Oh what a thing to do

And it was all yellow

Your skin

Oh yeah your skin and bones

Turn into something beautiful

Do you know

For you I'd bleed myself dry

It's true

Look how they shine for you

Look how they shine for

Look how they shine for you

Look how they shine

Look at the stars

Look how they shine for you

And all the things that you do."

I open my eyes to see Nole beaming at me and Rose asleep. I smile and kiss her forehead, turning off my phone. I climb into the bed and fall asleep listening to Rose's quiet snores and Nole's even breathing.