Its been a year now since Brandon's execution and it's so different without him I just don't know what to do without him its been so hard. I don't even know if it's a good difference I wish I have murdered the people who killed Brandon even more slowly than I did the police are on me I can't go in public I'm all over the news I can't go back to Connecticut I can't even spend my last final days with family my mother and brother was all I had left my mother I killed because well she was just stupid and my brother got executed I don't know what to do anymore. I can't even feel joy or get up in the morning happy I can't even leave the house for christ sakes the police are giving 100,000 to the people who find me and I know people won't hesitate to take pictures and call the police. I'm doomed all I can do is sit here and watch TV and eat and sleep until the police find me I just don't know what to do.