Hi my name is Kuji Nico and I am a boy. I live in a world where it is against the law to love the opposite sex. I came out to my parents a week ago as being straight and both my dads frowned at me. They told me to keep it a secret and not to tell anyone as I will be labelled as a disgusting breeder. I live on Earth in a world that is over populated and being straight is wrong. Growing up I get told every day that there's something wrong with my head or there is some demon controlling my mind making me attracted to girls. I can't help how I feel though I love girls and how they look.
I was even put into a straight away camp after I came out where for a long week I was paired up with a guy and forced to have a fake relationship and thats where I met my best friend Syo. Going into my high school years I was bullied and mocked for being a straight bastard and looking at a girl in my class. She is beautiful beyond anything and I would give anything to just be allowed to hold her hand. Though we have never even spoke. Me and my best friend Syo who's also straight decided to date to get the bullies off are backs. My dads are proud of me for being gay and letting the demon not control me anymore.
This is where it all started today was the day I met her Grace Monochrome. she's so beautiful she has short silver hair and a black sweater on. She enjoys the local night club life and loves to take photos. Shes so perfect and did I mention beautiful?
And this is my story of how it all went so wrong very fast.
I made my way to the local after school teenagers night club where all the gay singles usually proclaim to find their soul mates. It's also a hot spot for hooking up and date night. It's on after school every friday night at 6pm to 10pm. I'm 16 now in year 10 and I go to saint hopes high school.
I today was brave and decided I wanted to just talk to some girls maybe make a few friends. I wore a beautiful teal dress and a leather jacket and some makeup and eye contacts. I loved to dress as a girl with my feminine figure people wouldn't question it and I easily passed as a girl. It was the only time I could talk with girls. I do this every friday as my persona Lucy smith.
I made my way inside and the bright lights hit my face and the loud music was roaring throughout the room. Everywhere people are dancing in pairs. Everyone except one and that one person was Grace. She's here today sitting all alone in the corner taking photos of everything while smiling brightly like the sun.
I watch her from a distance as I see a beautiful blonde girl with blue eyes in a red dress go up to her. I over hear them talking. '' Hey beautiful do you want to dance?'' the blonde asks Grace while reaching out her hand. '' I'm good thank you!''. The blonde doesn't accept no as an answer and grabs her by the arm pulling her upwards to her.
Grace drops her camera smashing into pieces as it gets stepped on by 2 friends who just appeared near the blonde girl. '' Your no fun are you grace! You need to get out more. No ones going to like you if all you do is sit in the background'' One of the blondes friends say to Grace then another one adds in '' Wow Grace what a pretty dress you have I bet you'd look better without it on''. I continue to watch from a distance. I don't like what they are doing I think they are bullying her. Graces face just looks down as they continue to torment her.
After about 5 minutes of them not leaving her alone and giving her very rude unwanted attention she asks them '' Please give me my camera back and go away!''. '' What are you blind or something you dumb bitch? Your camera is broken!'' the blonde says to Grace while stepping on the pieces of whats left of her beloved camera.
I have had enough I know my parents told me to stay out of people's business but they are being so rude to her. Without thinking I pull the blondes hand away from Grace and stand between them after helping Grace up.
'' Are you okay?'' I ask Grace pretending I don't know her. Grace stares blankly into nothingness and seems broken finding out her camera is gone.
I yell at the bullys and then take Graces hand and bring her out of the night club. The blonde and her friends try to follow us and I grab Graces hand and we run away behind a bin in the street outside the night club. I hear '' Hey where did that bitch go?'' from one of the blondes friends.
Once they are gone I let go of her hand and turn around to her '' I think they are gone now. I'm sorry about what happened to your camera are you okay? My name is Lucy it is nice to meet you''
She hugs me out of nowhere crying without saying a word. I hug her back and we stay silent for awhile. Before she goes home that night as I walk her home she passes me her phone number. '' Give me a call if you want to talk more you seem nice and I could use a nice girl in my life and thanks for helping me back there''.
I reply back to her as Lucy my fake persona. But if it gives me a chance to even talk to Grace I will become Lucy. After some talking near her house about a street away I learn she is blind. She tells me how she doesn't let it stop her, How she learnt to use mobile phones to call people and loves to take photos even if she can't see them. She told me one thing that stuck with me that night. She said '' I'm taking beautiful photos of what I can't see so that one day if I can ever see again I will be able to see what I've missed. Photography is everything to me. To capture the moment in a photo to remember it and to keep it as a reminder of the fun days I have had. Those photos on my camera where everything to me.''
I leave as she goes inside and I head home. I sneak back into my room through the back window and take off my dress to put on my normal clothes.
I hide my persona girls clothes in a box under the loose floor board under my bed and then sit on my bed. It is now 12am at night and I think I'm in love. I can't stop thinking about her and how wrong this wotld is. I know she likes girls but I can't just let how I feel go I've loved her for too many years now.
But I know it can never be as it's wrong. Why must I love a girl? Whats wrong with me?
If lucy gets a shot with her I'll be Lucy around her for even a chance in this crazy world I will lie.
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