I couldn’t tell you that you deserved me because I couldn’t handle telling you that you don’t. You don’t deserve me. You deserve better. So much better. But I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t lose you. I thought that if I told you as such, you would leave me. I realize now that I was wrong. You left because I did not try to deserve you. For that, my love, I am truly sorry. Not only for you but for myself. I lost the only thing that I ever needed. You. But I believe in G-d. I believe He has a plan and would not just take you from me without reason. So, I didn't try to fight for you. I accepted that He did not want us to be together. I was devastated. But I told myself I was going to move on. I never really did. As much faith as I have in G-d, there was always a part of me that thought He could have made a mistake. Perhaps that makes me heretical. Nonetheless, it is how I feel.