Ashton Here! Whats up? So far in my 15 years of life I've learned that life can be downer. I go to North Haven High School along with my two friend, Ember and Jeremy. I have light brown hair and raven blue eyes. I dyed my hair pink though. I have a tongue piercing and I'm Transgender. That means I wasn't always...well..Ashton. Or, at least, not on the outside. I think I began feeling this way around age 8. I had asked my mom for something from the boys section and she responded with " No, Kinsley, that's for boys." Ever since then, I've made a point of being boyish.

It was a year ago that things changed. I had, had enough with being called "Kinsley" by my mother, so I took a razor and was 5 seconds away from making the biggest mistake of my life. My dad found me and called 911. Had he been even 2 minutes late, i wouldn't have made it. I spent 4 months in rehab, then started talking to a therapist. My friends were very supportive. It was also around this time that Jeremy got a boyfriend and started to spend less time with us. Even with his boyfriend, he still spent a lot of time supporting me, so, I think I'm gonna be okay. (:

3 years ago when I came out to my family, my dad was accepting right away, as my brother, and my mom well.....she's trying. At least she talked to the school about it and respects my pronouns. For now, that's enough for me. When I came out to my friends, I used a song, since I love guitar. I love photography more, though. Some of my pics have even been on the front cover of magazines. My big brother, Bailey, is a pretty cool guy too. 

Nowadays, most people don't even remember that I was once considered a girl. I talk to a gender therapist (as well as my regular therapist) and am currently hoping to be accepted to take T (Testosterone) for my 16 birthday. Another aspect that makes my life hard is the fact that I'm deaf. I can talk and play the guitar through vibrations. I usually use sign language, but I carry a notepad around for people who don't know sign language anyways.

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The thing about me that didn't change was the fact that I was into guys. I have had hookups before. Because of my height I can usually get into clubs and bars with a fake ID. Before I hook up with people, I always tell them I'm trans. Most people accept me, but a few are just straight up assholes. Whatever. Screw Them.

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After another hook up, I had a terrible hangover. I forced myself up. I had a dentist appointment that morning. My father took me. Luckily for me, I had zero cavitys. Later when I got to school, I got there just in time to see Ember yelling at Jeremy for...something. When Ember saw my condition, her scolding was directed at me. I ignored her and started talking to Jeremy. When school ended, Jeremy called Hallelujah, Ember and I laughed, and Jeremy got into his bf's car while sticking his tongue out at us. Ember flipped him off, while I continued laughing. On the walk home, Ember and I stopped my the Arcade.

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"Nooo!" I shouted, as Ember crossed the finish line in first. We were playing virtual reality Mario Karts. It's fun, but also scary. It was getting late and my parents were going to start worrying, so I bid Ember goodnight and made my way home. I went straight to my room and turned on my phone. I played games on it until it died, then I watched TV until I fell asleep.