Friends are so hard to come by

They are full of endless possibilities

You don’t know who you’ll meet

Who’ll leave

If they’ll betray you

It’s rather annoying, no?

It’s hard to tell if they’ll understand you

If they’ll make a great friend

You never know wether they’ll accept your terrible side

What if they purposely piss you off?

Leave you?

Call you names and say it’s a joke?

How are you supposed to react? Huh?

Laugh and shrug it off

Don’t you dare go “I’m used to it lol”

Shut up

I don’t care

You may be used to it

But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t still hurt you

Right?

Don’t you just want a friend who won’t go

“That’s so you -_-“

“You hate everything”

“Nvm I’ll ask someone else, you don’t care”

“I’ll tell them in pm since I know you won’t care”

It hurts you know

Knowing you’re so dead that you’re never told anything

Even your parents say it

I’ve always just wanted a friend who understands how dead I can be

And still make me smile

Someone who’ll try to be fun

Who won’t just go

“You’re no fun to talk to anymore..”

I get it

I do

I’m sorry I can’t be the funniest

I try to mimic others

Think of what they’d do

I pretend to me someone I’m not

Just to make you laugh or smile

And you don’t even notice

How nice

To know the friends you thought were true

Can’t even tell if you’re being normal

It sucks

Sometimes

I just want to stop

Stop being nice

Stop acting funny

Stop being open

Hell

Just stop breathing

Let’s see who’ll notice

^-^