I felt the darkness around myself tightening on my skin, yet I would not let my resolve waver. Caeles stood by my side, I felt their essence trying to soothe me. Empress Numeri continued watching over the stars unfazed, in a strange way that made my worries lighten a bit. Then light began to tear away the darkness as the Absolute appeared before us, for some reason their presence felt very powerful. As Caeles departed first, Numeri looked over to me with a stern look, "Good-bye Lune." She would always leave without saying a single word to me, perhaps this truly will be the last time we ever see each other again. "Lune how was your time with the Nameless?" Pa caressed my face, and I began to feel a tinge of guilt. and the question I had suppressed, am I being selfish, for wanting to leave the Absolute's side?" I felt my lips tremble, "Everything was in order, there was no great disturbance." The only disturbance I could think of was myself.
We had reached the middle of the time cycle and I still had not told the Absolute about wanting to leave Anevaeh, the thought alone felt far from my mind almost unreachable. I looked over to Mo and Fa and I realized they had been looking over in my direction, I became slightly afraid and even more so because I am sure they felt all of my feelings in that brief moment. Everything felt it was becoming undone. "Lune? What is wrong?" They spoke in unison, "I-I need to ask a question regarding my-." In choosing the wrong words my mind became clouded, "My existence?" I had finished speaking yet they remained silent, knowing that is not what I wanted to say. Only being able to utter a few words was unsightly, it was uncalled for, why could I not share the truth of how I feel? I am part of the Absolute, they need to know! "With how I am now, could I leave Anevaeh and start my own life among the stars?"
The Absolute remained still as if I had stopped them both from moving. Until Fa spoke out first, "You do not wish to stay here any longer?" Their voice resonated with concern, "I want to create my own world and be a part of it, I had been watching the stars with you two for many eternities, yet I am not needed here the way you two are. I want to go where I am needed." Saying these ideas out loud made me realize more about myself then I could have ever thought, had it not been for wanting to leave here, there is much more to learn who I am. "So please, I ask of you two who are the most precious and irreplaceable existences I could ever have been born to, could I leave this place and begin anew?" They approached slowly as I dreaded to hear their answer, as I felt their warmth close to my face. Mo gently placed their hand on my head the warmth coming from their light, "Thank you for always being our honest child." Tears began to well up in my eyes for the words they spoke felt fulfilled and sad, then Fa cupped my face. "We may not know the life you will have once you leave us, yet knowing who you are, Lune. We both know you can create many wonderful things and memories, just how you have done for us." I smiled through my tears, not knowing why I was afraid of their answer to begin with, when all they had ever done was to make me happy.

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