Have you ever wished so much about something, you dreamed? It's been happening a lot. Master has been the only thing I dream of. Daydream, think of, you name it. I can't help it. I just want him to be mine. I want him to call me his, to say he's taken, to want me just as bad. Not just because he's in heat or sexually frustrated. I want to be the reason he smiles..The reason he blushes..I want him to only be cute for me, how can I make him love me just as much as I do for him? I don't think I've ever felt this way, it's kinda scary. I don't want to be rejected, I don't want to make it Awkward. I want so much from him. I doubt he'll want to give me it all.

My eyes opened, staring down at Master. I had been holding him in my arms. His body was warm. His tail has been swaying Slowly, a peaceful sleep? That’s good. Leaning down, my face Nuzzled his hair. It was so soft. Maybe I sound obsessed, but should I care? Master was in my arms, and not complaining.

Had that been my imaginary? Had we kissed? It didn’t seem so. You’d think there would be more spark. A flare, something other then knowing their lips are as soft as you thought.

Sighing. I had gotten up and put my clothes on. Since there wasn’t anything for me to do, I left my number on his nightstand.

“In case he needs me..I don’t even do much, why have such a big place but be so lonely..” My voice was low, making sure not to disturb him as I left the room.

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My body was sore. Maybe I should’ve stayed with Master in bed, that would’ve been far more comfortable. My ass really hurt. Leo really hit a number on it..

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“Uuuuggghhhh...” My voice growled. It was too damn early for anything. Maybe I should go to a cafe or something.

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My body sat in the chair heavily. Felt as if weights were slowly stacking up on me, what is this? Guilt? Shame? Depression? I don’t know at this point. The cafe was slow. Only two other people here. The staff was low as well. Sighing, I asked for a hot chocolate. Coffee may have been helpful but, it’s cold out. Wait..

I turned my attention to outside. Did it snow? Damn, how out of it was I to not notice? Hope it’s not slippery now, got a bad intendancy of not noticing things til the last moment, and then the effects start goin. Do I even make sense? Hell knows.

My hot chocolate came, but I asked for another. In case Master needed it. Checking my phone, there weren’t any missed calls or new messages.

“That’s good, Master didn’t need me..” Why did my heart ache just now? Did somewhere in my heart, hope sprung up, thinking he’d need me? I shook my head, feeling stupid for thinking he’d need me.

The front desk gave me my hot chocolates. Maybe it’ll keep my hands warm on the way to Master.

On my way out the door, my shoulder Nudged somehow else’s, I went to say sorry but my body froze.

It was Leo.