The world is a plain place for me. The sunrise just looks like a regular sunrise, I never got why people love these things so much. Like watching a romantic movie; I never got why people always connect with those characters. Where does these feeling of love stems from, where does this empathy comes from, and where do you go to find this feeling. All my past girlfriends, who I tried dating to see if I can get that special feeling tells me the same thing, “You will never find true love,” “why do you act like you want love when you clearly don’t,” and best one of all “You are better off alone.” It’s not like I didn’t try, it’s just that they never gave me the special feeling.

I thought love stems from it, but I guess it is all fake. Not wanting to be bother with this pointless look for love, I spend my days working at a coffee shop. It isn’t like I find joy in making coffee or anything, it’s just that I am good at it and it is an easy job for me. Still it is a wonder why someone as gloomy as me work at such a place like a coffee shop that supposed to wake people up. Maybe it stems from that fact that I hope to be awakened into a new world if I stayed long enough with people who always tries to wake up, or some other dumb bullshit I keep telling myself. Still it is an easy job so working here not too bad. But it does involve one of my favorite hobby; observing people’s interactions.

Many couples, friends, family, and even single people come here a lot and it gives me a lot of people to observe. Not that I take notice of everyone but sometimes my mind just wonders and fall onto people. Like today, there was this girl, just your average girl who comes here quite a bit with her boyfriend. She never comes to order herself, and the boyfriend always does. They seem to be an alright couple, but she always has this happy expression on her face that is totally bizarre to me. As I stare at her, I wonder what cause her to have this gleeful expression. Every time she waits, she quietly dawdling on her smartphone. Sometimes she would play games, or sometimes she would be quiet, probably reading a book or something. Still she never gets that gleeful expression on her face again, until the one factor that I discredited early.

She only has that ecstatic expression when he comes in. He seems like an ok guy who treats her right. Still the thing that I noticed was he has a happy expression but not to the point like the girl. It seems like her happiness of being with him was overwhelming while his was from eating a dish he likes. I could tell because of his enjoyment tasting his coffee; the expression he makes from enjoyment of coffee is to the same extent of seeing this girl. Still it is quite an astonishing find for me. Maybe further observation will tell me more about this feeling this girl has. But all good things must come to an end someday; I saw him bringing in another girl. Of course, she could just be a friend, but from his body language it tells me otherwise. His posture and everything are totally different from how he does it with his girlfriend.

He is totally interested in the conversation, and his attention is fully towards her, and what happen next when they leave defines how true his love is. He kisses her, someone who I could tell wasn’t his girlfriend, his intense emotion was fully conveyed there. Does she deserve to be with someone like this I ponder to myself. But why do I care about her at all. We are but strangers, still seeing him hurt her this way kinds of irritates me. But there nothing I can do, what can I a bystander of their life do to help her.

A week gone by and he comes often with this new girl, while still coming here with his real girlfriend. Not knowing what's the best way to do this, as the guy was smoking outside, I went out for a smoke break. So, I talk to this guy “Hey there,”

“Hey,” he said unenthusiastically.

“I see today you’re with your real girlfriend huh,” Giving me a weird look, he said, “I don’t know what you trying to say but best you back off.” Of course, he would be hostile I thought. still wanting to take it further I just said “Why don’t you just break off this thing with this girl then. You seem why happier with the other girl than with this girl.” I was truly wondering why. “Hey man, don’t act like you know me--” I cut him off “I’m not, it’s just from how I see you act. When you’re here with this girl it seems like you’re just counting the minutes until you both say your goodbye, but with the other girl you can’t wait until the next time. What’s stopping you from breaking away from this girl?”

“I don’t know man; this girl seems like wife material you know.” He said taking a deep puff in. “I don’t know,” I said truly not knowing. “You see, I feel like if I let this girl go, I might lose my chance of finding a good wife.”

“But would you be happy in a relationship where you rather cheat than let her go when you know you don’t love her enough anymore?” He was quiet for a while. He took another deep puff from his cigarette and holding it long before slowly letting it out. “Your right, if she the one then we’ll be together in the end anyways.” He went inside and broke up with her….