After Sam had left, the joy I had was sucked out of me. My life revolves around Sam right now, I don't want that to continue, it's painful.

I had known Sam the 1st grade. 

He's what you call perfect. Good grades, good looks, athletic, and with all of that he has a great personality.

He's the sun.

I'm earth.

Point being, I need him, he's my best friend. My only friend... but I know he can leave me at any second he wants.

With good grades, good looks, and being athletic, you're practically begging to be the center of attention.

He has all the friends he could ever want.

~I don't know why he would ever hang out with you.~

Being in a different class would be fine since I could build my self-confidence up.~You would never be able to do it~but it's class 5E. I don't think anyone is going to show

~You said you left that life behind. Lair~