silence is a deadly weapon,

especially when you’re

suicidal,

it leaves your mind to ponder,

and wonder

what life would be

if you never existed,

how better a person’s life would be

without you there,

or self-pity yourself

and cry about how bad your life is,

then you figure that there are

people out in the world

who have it worse than you,

then you start feeling selfish

and a horrible human being,

you beat yourself up and cry

and cry

and cry,

until you can’t no more,

silence is a deadly weapon,

especially for me