I’m sorry for being so selfish,

I’m sorry for being a

lazy piece of shit,

I’m sorry for the lies

I’ve been feeding you all,

my friends and family,

for these past years,

I’m sorry for being such

an awful son,

an awful brother,

and a sorry excuse

of a human being,

I’m sorry for not

being able to grow up

when I should have,

I’m sorry for all the attitude

I’ve spat at you

mom and dad, 

I’m sorry for joking

about suicide

my friends, 

I know it’s not really

something to joke about,

but it would help me

cope with my dark

and suicidal thoughts

slash wants,

I’m sorry if you guys

are finally figuring

and finding out

through these words, 

I’m sorry for not

telling any of you sooner,

about this

and how I was feeling all along,

I’m especially sorry to

those of you who I don’t know

reading this,

for if you’re able to relate to this,

for if you can relate to my pain,

in which I wish you the best,

after reading all my

sorry ass whining,

and piss poor poems,

but it’s all for

a better future,

and a better life

with less pain