Read Poetic Feels NV :: Tapas Year 2 (Poem 32-39)

32. LOve - (Read description below)

33. In the end, I'm alone - (Read description below)

34. Heart to Heart - (Read description below)

35. New Day (2015 New Years Poem) - (Read description below)

36. Heartless -

Once was a happy person, not care of other views but my own

My heart has all the pieces that is eating an ice cream cone

Remembering it now from past, my actions was reckless and bold

Maybe at the time I want attention since I’m starting to feel cold

So can you let me say what I want to say and not worry about losing

Anyone that I know and not question why I don’t accept your choosing

I been in between love and hate, I cannot called this a simple fate

I have to told them to wait since I don’t have an answer this late

Tell me again why I’m cold even though you already knew the answer

To my current actions that you don’t understand you and all the lancer

Out there trying to take my pieces that I hold in my warm heart

Turning me to be heartless in the first place in which you took apart

You gave me a question to answer and it has to be yes or no

How can I give you the answer if I just do not know?

There are times I could agree with you but times I could disagree

Like I’m sitting next to an apple tree waiting an answer drop on me

But since you never give me time to answer you give me an ultimatum

Telling me what to lose like every time like a record playing verbatim

The one thing I lose the most is my pieces that make me smile

Being with you it makes it while it felt like you doing to me is hostile

Friends blame this, family blames that, I’m in an abyss where I sat

Thinking of a kiss from a black cat was it amiss that I’m in this combat

What should you want me to act; angry that no one understand me

Or Sad that the fact is I don’t feel accepted and you think what you see

Tell me again why I’m cold even though you already knew the answer

To my current actions that you don’t understand you and all the lancer

Out there trying to take my pieces that I hold in my warm heart

Turning me to be heartless in the first place in which you took apart

I have one more piece left that keeps me from losing it all

Keeps me to trust you while despise you in this hall

I’ll never get to be happy as I once had before in my life

That is an inch to the knife that could lead to the afterlife

Even if all I said here, I’m not giving up of my ideals that got me here

So one day I’ll get all the pieces again and hope you’ll hear

It well so even if I’ll turn heartless now, doesn’t mean I don’t care

It means I need time alone to deal with problems over there

37. Give Up-

I want you to listen to me and listen it well

Because you didn’t hear the first time I can tell

No matter what I say you don’t understand do I need to yell

To you, I know my voice is low but actions is high to excel

Roses are red, Violets are blue

In times I wish it was me and you

But it wasn’t going to be true

Since you left before I knew

I’m just a bottle full of life that lack places to go

Or full of thoughts that can’t tell friend from foe

That one day they will break me to make me show

My rage that I kept inside you best you don’t know

Trying to stay alive but felt like giving up everyday

I see people becoming couples, genders to just they

Politics getting out of hand and I’m just here away

From stupid nonsense that just doesn’t end today

I want to be happy but I wonder how you can say to start over

When I don’t like being another person, I’m like a 4 leaf clover

That comes and goes; I don’t want my actions meant lower

At least I tried, can you accept that or your minds getting slower

Walking up, clean self, drive to work, work and think

Break, work again, head back, play games, sleep and sink

Lack of joy felt pressure every day and I don’t need to drink

My pains away, have to endure, think if I have a missing link

I don’t have a purpose in the world, every time I think ahead it

Brings me down feeling doubt but I don’t want to submit

To any religion, all false ways but I’m not rude I don’t spit

Since others care and not realize yet, so I’ll wait and sit

Maybe if I care less I would have gotten you but that’s not me

I’m glad you have someone that breaks the lock with its key

But I never got anyone that stayed at my side, felt sink in sea

Where are you, when I need you, it doesn’t need to be you don’t you see

But I don’t want you to worry; it’s something you don’t bare

Anymore, I felt what I do was right but what you say was unfair

So I accept it, maybe that’s why I made poems, it’s to share

My feelings, my rage, it’s better than fighting others in despair

I could have easily given up and die but chose to endure

The pain because I could end up waking up here, I’m sure

One day I will find something that will be my cure

Till then enjoy your fantasy for a person you think its allure

38. Soulmate ( person #1-Bold , person #2- Bold , person #3- bold )-

How many days I been thinking of you right at my side

Never thought you’ll accept my love since we are too wide

From each other, it took you awhile since my head in divide

For your answer and when you say yes, I was happy and cried

The best I can do right now is chit chat; you’re pretty as a kitty cat

That I felt I have to pat your head while you are looking at my hat

While I turn on the computer I sat and wait to see you, I may act bat

But I’ll wait no matter where you’re at, even if your life it’s in combat

I’m here you’re there, no matter how far you are, I’ll be there one day

To see your smile in person, not from a computer screen far away

I wonder how much I have to pay to meet you but for now you’re a ray

Of light I have to reach in my mind every day that I don’t need to display

I may look like machine and you look like a beast but we both felt a heartbeat

It may not be just me, I know you feel it too so don’t try to retreat

Please stay the way you are, you are sweet that has the warmth and heat

My cold heart that is done with playing repeat in mind hashtag soulmate tweet

One day before our end

Before I been your friend

Now a person to spend

A bond that isn’t unbend

Don’t forget me, I won’t forget you, there are few people I believe it’s true

I wonder if its faith or destiny, that us two find each other when the pursue

Of love, I like how you see my view and while I have seen yours, I knew

What I felt is something new, something I didn’t understood till your debut

I want to be the one to warm your heart as you enjoy my art

I felt the dart when I see yours; you’re kind when we part

But I don’t want to be apart from you, it was the start

Where if restart it will feel bad and for now I’ll be smart

I’ll dream of you tonight, as I’ll waiting in this tower for you, my knight

The tower may be high but you be alright if you keeping climbing despite

The dangers you may ignite, you’ll eventually have to fight

This world is black and white but keep on climbing the dark to get to the light

Just inhale and exhale your breath telling yourself that you’ll not fail

I know you’ll prevail, I can see your hand holding mine as I wag my tail

You may look frail but you’re stronger than you look, that’s a way I like a male

But for now, keep message me in your email be patient as a snail

The future curse will dispel

This world may be hell

In your heart you want to yell

I hope love will come to you as well

(Wakes up from a dream) (In the park far from those two)

While I look at two of you far away

My world around me is turning gray

Love to me felt I have been betray

I should just leave but choice to stay

And accept the pain in my heart remain

It’s hard to explain, but it’s like a train

It’s trying to move but kept contain

While inside the people are going insane

I dreamt of both of you that I knowing

The strong your love I see it showing

Your lives right now are easygoing

While it’s cold I don’t see any snowing

Here I am watching you with your soulmate

I’m glad you’re having fun at your little date

I wish I can be you but love close the gate

Once again so let me get this straight

I’m alone but I don’t mind

It’s love that’s tough to find

I don’t let things get behind

Because it reminds me that I’m kind

(Tear fell from the eye) (Walks away while leaving a letter to the winds)

I wonder if anyone feel the same way…..

39. Living In a dream (person #1 - Bold , person #2 - bold , person #3 -bold)

(Standing at the edge, “falls down”)

Waking up from this so called reality

Dreaming I been hit with so much brutality

The pain felt real that I’m having an ordeal

Even when I’m eating a meal, that dream I feel

Like I did this before, but what was missing

It’s not like I’ll remember everything from kissing

Since I can’t tell what’s next, my mind in complex

Of thoughts that reflects my actions of opposite sex

I wonder what I did wrong to make her say no

When I met her again one day, I want to know

Why I’m nothing more than a friend in the end

Are my efforts leads to dead-end, my heart felt bend

“It might be a little extreme but I don’t like this regime

I wanted you to feel supreme, not want you in a broken theme

Of love you wish to redeem but you don’t see me it seem

If you can’t find my gleam of light then I’m living in a dream”

Wow look at her with her guy, maybe you should be less

You in particular, you’re too nice that no girl will ever confess

Their love to you because you lack sound of hate that bound

To be just in the background, no wonder none stick around

You been in too many third wheels that you should be cupid

Because you never been in a relationship, love is stupid

Females expect the guy to be double standard, its trouble

That they don’t get off that bubble even from simple rubble

Oh there she is, tell her off and make her understand your rage

You’ll be a lot better this way instead of being stuck in this page

If you don’t, you’ll bound to break, your life been in stake

You have to wake up, this dream you try to take it’s a fake

…I won’t. Why? You’ll bind to have this in your mind over and over again. She will never accept you, so give up. (Smile) I accept it but at the same time I don’t. She’s the only one that felt open to, not family or friends. At least in this dream, I can keep trying even I know it’s pointless. (It’s almost time to wake up, I have to force him) “Shoots him from behind” AAAAH “fells down”

Zone?! Zone!! What happen to you….your bleeding, come on Zone stay with me please? “Gently touch her face”

Remember remember, please remember who I used to be

Who am I, who am I, Just a puppet in their game

I know it’s not guarantee, so please don’t forget about me