40. Near and Far

(person 1) :

Cause it’s too cold are you here and now

Have much to hold when I don’t know how

To let it go because it’s the last snow I found

So I can show to you before fade in the ground

I wonder did she love me the way I am

So much I didn’t see when it’s dark in 1 a.m.

I been told you be returning back to the city

Let me say I felt concerning about the pity

Situation I been put on but I don’t mind

As long you move like a fierce swan that is kind

Like this snow it’s rare to stay in hand without melt

On my hand it’s hard to say that I’m glad to be felt

To be near someone great maybe she wants me

Or was it just sad bait to me to come to make me see

That she’s too far to be touch or I’m just too fragile

Showing a scar but when life moves fast, I’m agile

Cause it’s too cold are you here and now

Have much to hold when I don’t know how

(Person 2):

To tell you I’m sorry for everything, I wasn’t able

To save you from being the carrying to keep me stable

When you help me many times I didn’t understand

The words you wrote in rhymes blooming meadowland

That I can get lost to but I don’t mind I can read it again

And again, so it’s true of the pain you hold times ten

I hold no feelings towards you but you chose to keep going

Knowing that, you didn’t undo your efforts even when snowing

Why just why you don’t give up, I don’t see us a future yet

You strive like a bee in cup, not accepting that is been set

You tried your best this is the end of the quest

Now leave the rest for a man to past my test

Oh come on now, there is someone nearby my dear

If you allow yourself to go far, then you’ll have no fear

Cause it’s too cold are you here and now

Have much to hold when I don’t know how

(Person 1) :

You gotten so far but with me you’re are near

Like you’re a bright star, I hope you enjoy your career

(A hour later)

I wonder what’s taking her so long….I better head back; she’ll worry if I stay out too long waiting. She’ll understand.

“Heads out in the darkness of the street”

(Narrator):

(A figure watching him across the street)

(Walks the other way disappeared in the night……………..leaving something dripping behind)

41. Patient 

If you don’t got time for that, you better leave

I’m not a good enough, got no magic on my sleeve

Just a poet that lacks the voice sits in silence in the group

Everyone enjoy their day; never understand my head in loop

While others think of me as a puppet they can us as a pawn

They don’t realize my mind is fragile and has little brawn

But that doesn’t mean that I’m weak, just misunderstood

You think it’s good when none would experience my withstood

Of fighting back, letting out my anger where I lose control

Strike till you don’t stand any more, done playing nice soul

That just accepts the pain and nothing more, but it’s only

A daydream I been having and I don’t want to feel lonely

That’s why I been patient, I know my poems not as above

As drawings but will not give up, no matter the strong shove

I’ll get back up stronger and adapt beyond your expectation

Just give me more time if you let me till our confrontation

You all have goals to achieve; all I got is fight for survival

Alone I’m stronger than before, but not close to revival

From the dark, the light exposes too much pain in the game

Of life and death shown in the world, guessing who the blame

Am I making your flame weaker, so you want to end me?

Or making it stronger so you kept draining me like a tree

Either way, I’m here to stay, I won’t fall that easily fool

Keep learning outside, you won’t learn that from school

I wonder if I be notice if I add more artists in my stories

Be more popular, gain more fans and eat out at Tories

Ok the last part is false, but you know what I mean

I’m working up little and little so I don’t feel between

That’s why I been patient, I know my poems not as above

As drawings but will not give up, no matter the strong shove

I’ll get back up stronger and adapt beyond your expectation

Just give me more time if you let me till our confrontation

When I say “I love you” I wonder do you feel the same way

Been told the same way and worse they chose other prey

That fit their prefer type, been here waiting like you said

But you didn’t see the effort I put but you ignore instead

I’m running out of time, death is getting closer to my end

Can you give me some light, with my dark it will blend

To keep me alive, so please stay at my side if you can

Hold me hand, keeping me warm, I wonder if I’m your man

Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me, infect me with your love here and now

I repeat, the end is getting near I don’t know how long I allow

To stay here, it’s not you, it’s been me, and I realize it too late

Was it been fate, for me to end in this state, my bad trait

That’s why I been patient, I know my poems not as above

As drawings but will not give up, no matter the strong shove

I’ll get back up stronger and adapt beyond your expectation

Just give me more time if you let me till our confrontation

-Cut that’s all folks-

???: How I do director?

Director: Well it’s the people that decides, Mr…….-

???:Zone, sir

Director: Mr. Zone, we well keep in touch, just be patient

-Director walks off-

Zone: But sir….. “listen to people on the floor”

Person 1: This person really thinks he be popular, no wonder not many pay attention to him haha

Person 2: hahaha he’s no class, no girl ever gets him

Zone:…… “Walks off” I’ll show them all

42. Fool

What time to be alive, knowing you felt dead inside

My mind can’t think straight, this world was dyed

By the corrupting of the order, tell who lives and dies

Plotting the end of your world, taking away your prize

Can the world just be change for the better not worse

We have to wait for the doctor so you only give the nurse

How long for the cure arrive till it doesn’t work anymore

And we go back to the waiting game like before

When the world owns by no one, simple times before order

Now we becoming more and the world is making a border

Between the rich and poor, making harder to be united

Why you think in my life I don’t feel much excited

You treated me like a fool that you chose not to understand

Wish you taken the chance, I always given you a hand

But am I too clinging, I didn’t want to lose more than I gain

The sun is covered and everyday it feels it’s going to rain

Past may be the past but we learn the past to change

Who we once are and adapt to present, isn’t that strange?

Why couldn’t people accept you before, and accept you

When you fit their ideals, what I thought you already knew

Why I’m just a nightmare you dream every night, I don’t rage

Often, ever seen beauty and the beast, don’t read their page

I accept your choice but you didn’t come back, was I upstage?

Now no one ever comes in, now I feel sad in this small cage

Thinking positive doesn’t always work when you think

Of ripping heads that do you wrong, I don’t need a drink

To relax the urge, let things go puts me in more pain than

Before, I have to fight it on my own, oh man

You treated me like a fool that you chose not to understand

Wish you taken the chance, I always given you a hand

But scared of my words you don’t understand so you

Instead taken my heart but never explain why, it’s nothing new

Monster I don’t want to be, but you see that in me

Those with religion don’t hear what you can’t see

Heart to heart can make it or break it depends if the other

Empty you before the other’s eyes go for another

From a person once positive with no knowledge here to now

Older and deeper than I was before, I can’t even vow

Occasionally it will break, prefer the action a person take to

Love but I wonder if it will reach me too, can’t tell if it’s true

I been played like a fool but I chose to forgive, if I fall below

Will you chose to save me or leave me till my lungs overflow

If its fate I can’t accept, there are things living I will kept

From falling like me, woken here like I haven’t slept

43. Black and Yellow

(Person 1):

You know who I am being black and yellow

Walking with you but not dress like a fine fellow

So don’t expect me to wiggle like a fruity jello

I roam harder than those that named Carmelo

People can step on me easily like a pebble

But don’t realize I can fight back like a rebel

The rage phase in and out every day like a switch

Mentally I tend to be glad to have this glitch

Standing tall here but carrying many stitches

From people that don’t expect me to be in riches

Working hard, living been harder, no time to relax

One day, I’ll be the one to strike with my attacks

There is a time to act and there is time to play

Friendlies so you can be ready competition slay

Light and dark side to side, you can’t see this inside

How far can I enjoy this ride, this is where I chose to decide

You know who I am being black and yellow

Walking with you but not dress like a fine fellow

So don’t expect her to wiggle like a fruity jello

She’s best speaking while rocking her Cello

(Person 2):

Fellows, treat your females properly, she’s not your property

She can choose to stay with you or leave from the labor party

Females, stop making “hard to get” harder than it seems to be

He may not be smart or strong but he kept trying don’t you see

I may act different today than I was yesterday so I can adapt

Anything can happen in time, in the past I just snapped

Present, I’m just playing my cello talking to you all

I don’t see the future, but the end death will take the call

Seeing how it ends gives my thought to negativity

Telling my pain and sorrow to you all reading exclusivity

Working on my life, isn’t that so much productivity

That it gives me ideas of a positive activity

You have to believe in me, my hands may be bleeding

But it doesn’t mean you can say that I’m pleading

I have to keep going to so I’ll endure to succeeding

To survive life, so please if I leave you, it isn’t misleading

You know who I am being black and yellow

Walking with you but not dress like a fine fellow

So please don’t feel like you been betrayed like Othello

I just want to be someone who is more mellow

44. Just Think

You were the shadow to my light

Did you feel us

Another start

You fade away

Afraid our aim is out of sight

Wanna see us

Alive

Breaking mirrors in my head, waking up crying in my bed

Eating small pieces of bread, maybe its best if I just be dead

With you I feel better than before, many things to explore

A story you chose to ignore, a story that never reach ashore

But enough of that it been and done me, look at me fool

Can’t you see yourself now, hurting from being a tool

To them, to her you’re just someone that wish was nearer

So she chose you as “brother”, so stop breaking the mirror

Words in my dream that once felt like reality hurt like a ringing

Bell that woke me up, wonder what this day will start bringing

Photos on Facebook, people exciting or showing up their lover

If you really love each other so much, then best be cover

Working hard to keep a stable life, saving money little by little

So I don’t eat much, I want a strike in a life game of Skittle

Eating too much will make me sleepy, need to stay awake

It’s hard to tell sometimes if our lives are real or just a mistake

I can easily end myself to end the pain I been holding

My life is meaningless but others will say otherwise by scolding

Me but look at yourself and look at me, you looking amazing

I don’t have the passion to be you; I don’t have your blazing

What are your feeling for me, oh right you had none

I guess that put a happy dream to be put on stun

No worries I guess, even as a friend you give me strength

I just wish I was closer than just a cold arm length

Alone again, roaming again, finding things on own once more

But it felt heavy alone like I’m about to fall to the floor

Doubts coming back to me again like mood weather

It’s like a boulder crushing me like I’m a small feather

I never hate you; just it makes me sad that I’m not the star

That you wanted, now you have someone and looking far

I just wish you accept me the way I am, not from your desire

I like your body but I prefer your personality that is require

Just watching the beach, I wonder what will wash up now

I sent a gift but nothing came back, I’ll wait while eating chow

I can’t swim so this is the best I can do, being patient here

Might as well take a guess of how the day ends my dear

Just think, I could have ended this poem in one stanza

45. Sticks and Stones

Taken words from the pop king “They don’t really care about us”

We are just pawns that are expendables to them that’s their plus

So what’s the point of trusting you if you can easily point a gun at my head

And you can easily get away of it cause you have false power to use instead

You push our buttons too far that it gets us to strike you down

But you use that as an opportunity that get you closer to the crown

“Bang bang” , you became the hero that kill the innocent you corrupted

Your “damage” can easily lead the world to war if it wasn’t disrupted

Sticks and stones may break my fragile bones but it’s better than death

By your mass destruction that can come out of nowhere to take my breath

Away till I’ll lie on the ground with many thoughts that makes me smile

But it’s a thought I don’t want to experience, not for a long while

Another war, another way to makes profit, another way to decrease population

Trying to “save” what’s left of earth after your damage is your desperation

Eliminate those that knows your secrets, who are under your expectation

So in the end, your life will not be that easy base on the calculation

Why I have to be the one that have to be in bloodshed when you start this

You hiding in the back while others remember their last dear kiss

Unsure if we live to survive to go back to what’s left that we used to call home

And you just be proud of us, not knowing what we been through in your dome

You let those bodies hit the floor, slam their faces with a door

Expect us to be worse than sore; you owe more than your score

Pay our hospital bills, oh great he flee; need to fight this PTSD

While waiting to see the fallen’s lover to say he die at sea

Years later this world felt less than normal, many places destroyed

Many people lost their lives and their hope that faded, I can’t avoid

Their pain, so I’ll just walk to them, pats their heads and they say sir

Why you look lively in our broken world, I told them what I told to the fallen’s lover

Just breath

The dead can’t be revive

He wanted you to be alive

Don’t forget to breath

We live to say we survive

To tell the new world, we have arrive