Hanin said, " Please, Ali put me down. let me bring a towel for me . You go to first to the bathroom and once I bring the towel I will follow you. "

Ali said, " You want to play tricks on me and get away from me. "

Hanin said, " I swear I won't do any tricks on you or I won't flee from you. "

Ali got to bath room and Hanin went to bring a towel for her.

Ali was leaning against the wall in the shower & talking to himself, " I'm so exhausted, I can hardly stand, but I just have to pull myself together for her sake. I don't want to see her tears any more. Whatever happens I will never make her feel what I'm suffering. "

" I'm so happy, so sad and so horrified. I'm so sad because of the counting down of my life already has been started,The more a day passed, the closer I came to my end and my death. "

" I really don't want to die, leaving her behind me and leaving all this happiness. "

" I was satisfied and accepted the fact that I would die, because I had no reason to live in this life, but after her return to my life, life became meant a lot to me and I became clinging to life and I don't want to die . "

" I'm so happy for being with her but, the more happiness I get, the more sadness I feel, the more fear that this happiness may taken away from me at any moment. "

" In spite of all this, I must still pretend before her that I am fine & happy so that I will not see her sadness and I will not see her tears again. "

Ali smiled a fake smiled while he was talking to himself, " She was always called me crybaby. "

" How much I want to come back to be that crybaby who was throwing his head on her chest and crying. "

" How much I miss to hear her words, which always gives me strength. "

" How much I miss to complaining to her about things which hurting me. "

" How much I miss to sharing her my fears & my sorrow with her and throw that heavy weight from my back to feel comfortable and safe. "

" But all of this is just wishes, which are so difficult to achieve because if I do that it will be at the expense of her happiness. "

" I won't ever allow to that to happen, I will allow only to myself to be the one who suffers and grieves, I can at least tell myself that I've saved her from being sad, though that will be at the cost of my wishes and my comfort. "

Suddenly Hanin hugged him from the back in the shower, putting her head on his back.