Warning this chapter may be triggering to some read at your own discretion

I've come to far to let myself sink back into that darkness when I finally can see the light I've come to far

I've come to far to let one day get to me but the answer is not to suppress my worries and I know that now because I had to go with my dad to the doctor and find out if they wanted to do surgery on the other cyst on his kidneys and all they can tell us is that there's very likely chance it can turn into cancer and I've already lost someone I love to cancer so it got to me instead of dealing with those emotions I suppress them because I didn't want my dad to see how worried I was about the chance of losing him so later in the day when I was trying to give my cat's medicine one of them bit me unfortunately it triggered everything I was suppressing to reach the surface and I had a panic attack the one in my mind made me feel bad because I let it get to that point but I've learned so many things and come so far and I know it's okay to deal with my emotions to have them my anxiety can never make me hate myself again for feeling things as deeply as I do I'm not going to let this get to me I'm not going to let my anxiety tell me I'm a bad person for this I'm stronger than the one in my mind's will ever be I've come to far