"Please go Ari! It won’t be the same without you!” Jacely said practically yelling at me at this point. I have already said no literally seven times and she has yet to accept it.

“I don’t understand why I have to go, you all will have a great time without me. I’m not trying to be stuck there.” There is so much more that I could be doing here.

“You are our friend and we all love you. Plus you don’t even know who is all going anyways!” I don’t really care who is all going to be honest.

“Jacely—“

“Ash might go!” Oh I see now. This is why she wants me to go so badly, because he is going.

“And?”

“Are you kidding me Ari? He really likes you and when I invited him he said the only way he will go is if you go with us. He wants to spend time with you.” So I see that they have been talking with each other about me.

I don’t wanna be stuck with everyone and then they all harass me about Ashton, we aren’t together and no one understands that whatsoever. He sort of understands but I know that he doesn’t like it.

We have been getting too close with each other lately and I need to let him know what we are again. I have to remind him of his place and mine.

“I might go. I’ll let you know tomorrow at work, I have to get ready for bed right now Jace.” She rolled her eyes and grabbed her purse.

“It will be a lot of fun Ari. I love you and please think about it.” She hugged me and left my house.

After I knew she was gone I grabbed my keys and left my apartment, I have to pay someone a visit at the moment.

And this person was sweet little Ashton. I locked my door and headed straight for his door, knocking on it as soon as I reached it. Nothing wrong with paying my pet a little visit.

The moment that Ashton opened the door and seen that it was me his eyes grew entirely too wide. “Ari, what are you doing here?” His cologne was hitting me right in the nose, it was so intoxicating.

Not only that but he was just in his basketball shorts and no shirt. Almost as if he was ready for me to come over here.

“I figured I would come and see you, are you going to let me in?” It wasn’t necessarily a question but a statement. Ashton instantly let me in without any hesitation, I love when he listens to me so easily.

As soon as he shut his door I quickly grabbed him, turned him around and pushed him against the door. My lips found their way to his ever so soft neck and began to lick, kiss and suck all over.

 He was letting out little moans as he put one hand on my back and the other in my hair pulling at it.

This was only turning me on so much more.

“Ari—“

“Shut up.” I said as I put one of my hands over his mouth.

I didn’t want to talk, I had nothing to say. All I wanted to hear was him moan out my name and nothing else.

Ashton put one hand between us and began lightly grabbing my dick. This is only going to make me attack him I really can not hold myself back much longer from him.

“Room. Now.” I said as I looked into his blue eyes. He nodded and grabbed my hand as he led the way to his bedroom.

He turned around as soon as we walked through his doorway and wrapped his arms around my neck. The look in his eyes were telling me that he wanted to kiss me and that was what I didn’t want.

So, I smirked at him and pushed him on to his bed.

I hope he remembers his rules because they have not went away.

“Before we begin Ashton, do you remember your rules?”

“Yes.” I began unbuckling my belt ever so slowly.

“Tell me them.” His eyes were fixated on my belt, his eyes said it all. I grabbed him by his chin and made him look at me. “I am talking to you pet.”

“I can not kiss you.”

“And?” My belt was off and my pants were unbuttoned, I could see this alone was making him grow in his basketball shorts.

“I can not try to dominate you or take control.” I took my shirt off and threw it to the side.

“I’m so glad you know how to listen.” I put my hand on his chest and pushed him to lay down on his bed. I got on top of him and began to kiss all down his chest to his stomach.

As I was doing this I couldn’t help but notice some pretty bad scars that were on the side of his stomach. I’ll ask about it some other time, right now I am currently very busy.

I still hadn’t pulled his shorts down because I was wanting to tease him a bit. I started to kiss outside of his shorts and play with his now very hard dick. I could see his hands gripping on to the sheets as I continued to tease him.

Right as I was going to pull his shorts down his phone began ringing, which was distracting as fuck. I looked up at him and he looked down at me with very apologetic eyes.

“I’ll be quick.” I huffed and got off of him and just sat on his bed while I waited.

Ashton walked out of the room to take the call, I am terrible because I wanted to hear. I’m a meddling ass dude sometimes okay.

“Just takes deep breaths....I’m here.....everything is going to be okay, he is gone they aren’t gonna let him come near us.” I wonder what he is talking about?

“Listen to me Celest I am here and I am okay. You never have to worry about me, I love you and I will never let him near you again. I promised you that didn’t I?” This must be his sister or something. He’s never brought her up before.

“You are not alone....You can always come here and stay with me if you have to. I told you I would take care of you and I.” I am so curious as to what is going on.

“I know he hurt me bad, I know I could have died but I didn’t. I saved you and I...I told you I was never going to let him touch you again......You need to get some sleep Celest it will make you feel better...”

He sounds so worried and so caring and even hurt. I’ve been so focused on what I want that I never actually take the time to ask about him.

These are the things that he talks about when he says he wants to get to know me more. No telling how much built up pain he has, just like me.

“Sorry about that, would you—“

“Sit down Ashton.” I scooted over so he could have some room to sit next to me. “Is everything okay?” He looked at me like I said something crazy.

“What?”

“Is everything alright?”

“Uh....I mean it will be.” He looked away from me and looked at the ground. I don’t like showing affection but here I am. Showing it.

I wrapped my arm around him and pulled him close to me. He put his head on my chest and kept it there.

I’m not entirely sure what I am supposed to do as of right now but he seems to be comfortable and I don’t want to ruin this moment for him.

“It’s just not fair. It’s always the good people that get hurt, they don’t deserve that. Why aren't they allowed to have any love or happiness?” I could tell that he wasn’t necessarily talking to me but more like out loud for the world to hear.

Who hurt him?

“Would you like to tell me what happened?” He just shook his head.

What is happening right now?

“Talk to me Ashton, what is going on?” His entire body tensed up as he looked at me.

“Why does it matter? Why do you wanna know so badly? Any other time you wouldn’t care so why do you now?” I was so speechless at the words that were coming from his mouth. 

“All the times that I just wanted to talk to you, to get to know you, you just pushed me away. Like literally pushed me away.

“You would just sleep with me then leave or make me leave, so please tell me. Why do you care right now? Is it just to be nosy? Or to pretend like you care?” I had no words for him.

I couldn’t believe that this was coming from him, I’ve never seen him like this. Maybe I was being too harsh on him.

“I’m—“

“Don’t say you’re sorry.” He looked away from me again and just looked at the floor. “Please go. I want to be alone.” I didn’t even try to argue with him, I left like he asked.

I know his pain though, I know how it feels to hurt. I also know that you do need people in your life that are supportive, I can not be that person.

Especially when I have my own issues that keep me from loving someone else, or even keeps me from wanting to be there for someone.

Ashton and I are complete opposites.

I’m not what he needs.

But I’ll be his friend as much as I can.

“I’ll go.” I said as I walked into Jacely’s cubicle.

“Do what now?” Why is she acting so confused?

“To the cabin in the woods or whatever you want to call this thing.” She laughed at me as she rolled her chair to me.

“First of all, this is not a horror movie. Second of all, thank you so much.”

“Is Ashton still going?” He is the only reason why I am even going.

“He said he would let me know something today but I am going to tell him that you decided to go so that should make him say yes. This will be good for you guys Ari.” I sighed and sat down on her desk.

“Jacely—“

“I know Ari, I know. But that is in the past now, he’s a great guy and he would never do you like that. I know you have this wall up but it’s time to start bringing it down a bit.” She was right even though I didn’t want her to be.

I’m not ready.

“At this point in my life I don’t want to yet, I don’t know if I ever will be. But I will say this, I’ll be his friend. I’ll be someone he can come to about things. But I can not be the person who loves him and stays by his side.”

“You say this now, but I promise you will change your mind. You just need to have proof and trust. You need someone you can love.” That is exactly what I don’t want or need and I’m perfectly fine just the way I am.

“Jace, I don’t need a single person to love me.” It sounds bad but it’s true. I don’t need anyone in that way.

I don’t want to go through everything all over again that I’ve already had to deal with.

I’m perfectly fine just like this