Did I screw up?

Did I ruin something that could have been by making him leave?

I didn’t mean to be so aggressive towards him especially since he was actually showing he cared. At least I hope that is what was happening. I shouldn’t be beating myself up over this I’m sure it didn’t bother him either way.

Again, why am I like this?

My sister was having a serious panic attack so she needed me to help her through it, I didn’t mean to stop what we were doing. After everything that has happened to her and I she has not been the same.

I’m sure he understood why I was so upset.

God why do I like him so much!?

‘Ash! I talked to Ari this morning and he decided to go! You still down?’

Do I really wanna go to this? Do I really want to spend an entire weekend with him and his friends? What I do need is to get away, with people who seem to like me.

These guys seem like they do at least, especially Alex.

I looked down at my phone and contemplated what I wanted to send to her. I guess he didn’t want to go at first. I’m sure Jacely told him what I said and that’s why he said yes.

So he decided to go for me? Fuck it.

‘Cool. I’m still down.’

‘Yay! If it’s alright you and Ari will do all the food shopping, he knows what to get to make some killer food.’

Of course I would have to go with him.

I don’t even know what to say to him after the other day, I wasn’t wanting to see him until this trip just so we would have to be around people.

Why do I overthink everything in this world?

‘Come to my car, I’m ready’

Excuse me? No ‘hey when do you want to go’ type thing? Yet, I am going to listen to this man because I can’t help myself. I grabbed my keys and headed out to Ari.

As I got closer to and closer to him my stomach was all up in knots, I don’t understand why I am this way knowing how he feels about me.

Once I approached his vehicle he was looking right at me with those piercing eyes, why does he have to look like this!?

I got in the car and put my seat belt on without saying anything which just made things so awkward for me. The feeling in the pit of my stomach is so unbearable at this point I think I might vomit.

“Alright, lets go.” Aaaahh! I literally just nodded, just a whole nod. Can someone please fix me and make me a whole lot less weird. I have to say something.

“So....food?” God, if you exist. Strike me down now. Please and thank you.

“Yep. Food.” I’m about to jump out of this car and let the wind take me. I hope I do at least three flips on the concrete.

“So—“

“I’m sorry about the other day Ashton. I didn’t mean to make you so upset and I didn’t mean to come off as nosy.” Well I wasn’t expecting that. I looked at his profile and took it all in. How is he able to do this to me?

“I shouldn’t have been so mean I could have went about it a lot better but...it’s just hard when it comes to my sister..”

“That was your sister?” I forgot I never told him about her.

“Yeah...she...she has a lot of panic attack’s so she calls me to help her through it.” He looked at me for a second before looking back at the road.

“You’re a great brother.” Was all he said before things got quiet again.

As we walked around the store grabbing a various of items I kept watching him, he would ask me here and there what I liked but that was the most that was said between the two of us.

The way he walked, the way he presented himself just showed how much of a dominant man he was. He walked as if he ruled the world. And honestly, it was turning me on so much that it hurt.

The women would stare as we walked by and even some men would watch him. I felt so lucky to be next to him.

“Oh, I’m sorry.” The hell? I looked to the left to see a woman standing right next to Ari, smiling and blushing. What? What did I miss?

“I should pay more attention to where I am going. I shouldn’t run into a lovely lady like yourself. Are you alright?” His voice, that smirk. I know what he is doing, and I don’t like it.

Not in front of me.

“Well you could make it up to me, that would make me a lot better.” Her face, her voice, that ugly smile. I want it gone, I don’t like this. Ari glanced over at me and smirked.

“And how is that?” I was fuming.

“Can I have your number?” Oh hell to the mother fucking no. This is what is not going to happen.

“Hey man, sorry to interrupt but something just came up.” I panicked okay!? I didn’t know what to say and I didn’t wanna hear what he was going to say to her?

“And you are?” She asked as she glared at me. Ari licked his lips at me and winked at me. What is that?

“This is my—“

“I’m his boyfriend. So if you would mind, something came up.” I grabbed the cart and walked away with it, hoping that Ari would follow me.

“It was a pleasure to meet you, I must go.” I heard him say behind me. Why am I so jealous? Why did I say that?

Why am I this way?

“Boyfriend?” I heard right next to my ear, which I must say scared me a bit.

“Don’t let it get to your head.”

“Oh I won’t. But it seems like you on the other hand were letting it get to you?” He could see right through me.

“I..I...”

“Don’t worry Ashton, I thought that was sexy as hell. Trying to claim me as yours, getting jealous over some female.” He got closer to my ear, causing all the blood to go to my other head real quick.

“You already know this dick is all yours pet.” Fuck these groceries, fuck these people I just want him. I looked him in his eyes and took a deep breath.

“I want it..” I whispered to him.

“What was that?”

“I want it, now.” He chuckled at me before lightly rubbing my dick then walking away.

That did not just happen to me. He did not just mess with me like that.

“You have some nerve Ari, doing that to me.” I said as I caught up to him.

“Oh yeah?” He said as he turned a corner.

“Yeah!” As I walked around the corner as well he grabbed me by neck and pushed me against the wall hard.

“And what are you going to do about it pet?” Everything with this situation was intense as well as so damn hot. I was very hard, and I was very turned on.

I would probably let him have me right if he said the words.

“I...” I couldn’t get anything out, I was speechless and hot. He got closer to my face, stuck out his tongue and licked my lips so lightly. I want to kiss him so bad but I know that I can’t.

“You want this don’t you? You want me to fuck You right here in the middle of the store like a little whore don’t you?” His words were going straight to my dick.

“If I said yes? Then what?” My turn to mess with him.

"Then take your pants off.” That is not what I was expecting him to say. I honestly don’t know what I was expecting to hear. Ari started laughing as he let go of me, wait no this is what I didn’t want.

“Let’s go pet.” He let go of me and began walking away. I watched him go for a second and took a deep breath.

I can not stand him at all, he knows exactly how to get to get me going and then he goes and does this. I adjusted myself and started to follow him around.

It felt like we were in there for hours when it was like fifteen more minutes.

I had only one thing on my mind and Ari was not helping my situation. If he needed something that I was by he would brush against my dick, or if he had to reach for something that was high he would make sure his shirt would go up so I could see what I love.

I hate him so much.

“Come one Puppe, can’t stay in line all day.” He has already checked out and I had not realized it, I want him and only him right now.

We put the groceries in his trunk and got in his car. He’s lucky that we are in a parking lot or I would do so many things to him. He glanced at me before taking off and began going a way I was unfamiliar with.

“Where are we going?”

“Don’t talk.” Well alrighty then. I sat back and shut my mouth just like he said.

Ari pulled into some abandoned parking lot that looks like murders probably happen here.

“What—“ Before anything else came out of my mouth he grabbed my head and began kissing my neck.

He put his hands under my shirt and started to rub all over my torso. Oh my god I love his touch. He was biting my neck, sucking on it and just flat out leaving his mark.

He began playing with my nipple which caused me to moan out a little bit and arch my back a bit.

“Let me hear those moans Ashton.” I will always love the way my name comes out of his mouth.

He pulled away from me so he could take his shirt off and unbutton his pants. “Remove your shirt.” I didn’t hesitate one but, I quickly took it off for him.

“Get in the back seat.” I did just that. I got in the back and he followed me getting right behind me.

Ari removed my pants and boxers and grabbed something from underneath the seat. It was lube and a condom, is this just a thing he is used to doing?

“Don’t hold back pet, I want to hear my name and those sweet moans coming out of your mouth.” He said as he began putting two fingers inside of me.

I swear just this is going to make me lose it, I have wanted his touch for so long now.

“Ari, if you keep doing that....” I moaned out as he continued to touch my sweet spot. He removed his fingers and in seconds I felt his dick starting to go in me.

I instantly let out a moan as he went all the way in me. I needed this so badly.

Ari started off slow, letting me feel his entire length. I want him to go hard, I want him to make me cry out.

“Harder Ari...” He grabbed my hair and pulled my head up to me.

“What was that pet?” He licked and nibbled on my ear lobe.

“I want you to fuck me Ari...please.” He continued to go deep and slow in me driving me nuts the entire time.

“You tell me what you want, and I’ll give it you Ashton.” His voice was low and deep and so sexy.

“I need you to fuck me hard and fast, please make me cry out make me want me Ari.” He chuckled in my ear before pushing my head down and pulling my ass closer to him.

Instantly he began going hard making me moan out loud just like he wanted.

“Let me hear those sweet moans.” Each thrust made me yelp, I had to hold on to the door because of how intense this was. He held the back of my neck and started to go much faster.

“Ari..!” It was so much that I could feel myself getting so close to my breaking point.

“Wait for me Ashton.” Ari began moaning out loud, it was one of the first times I’ve heard him actually get loud. It was so sexy that it sent me over the edge and I was coming.

Me doing this caused him to do the same, he had a few more pumps left before he stopped and held on to me.

I didn’t want to say anything and ruin this moment, I wanted him to hold me like this for as long as he could. But all good things must come to an end.

He handed me his shirt to clean myself and his seat off. “Don’t worry about getting the shirt messy, We are headed home so I won’t need to put it on.” He got out of the car and buttoned his pants and stretched.

As I cleaned myself and put my clothing back on I watched him. I want him to be mine, I want to claim him as my guy.

I want him to love me one day and mean it. I know I can love him very easily I just need him to open up to me, maybe if I open up to him he will want to be more open with me.

I just really, really want to love him.