3:35pm fawnstars

"Just thought you should know that as an astrologer and caring person I understand and respect your privacy. :-) Thank you for your openness with me."

3:36pm fawnstars

"I have been busy with my nephew all day but I will write after 10:30 on those notes I mentioned. 🌙☀️"

3:36pm army_made896

"👌🏽"

5:35pm fawnstars

"Oh my gosh you rock!! I just saw that letter you wrote on Christian's behalf, talk about vernacular lol"

5:53pm fawnstars

"Christian is stoked we are connecting over family stuff and astrology. I spoke of privacy earlier because it is respectful to hold space in that way. Also, because you and your brother are just getting to finally know each other and you both have the right to share very personal stuff on your own time, and learn about each other together."

5:56pm fawnstars

"Looking at your chart I saw something that speaks to a lot of the darkness, lonlieness, hanging on a rope spinning in space in the blackness... There is something that you are facing in this life that is very dark and because of that your triumph will be the greatest."

5:57pm fawnstars

"You are looking back in time, in space... and a lot of it is attached to memories of violence or anger in your childhood but especially before that, in a past life or lives."

6:04pm fawnstars

"One of your focuses this life will be to separate emotionally from your history, your past, your memories, and all the stuff that has "happened" to you."

6:05pm: fawnstars

"I have 3 older stepbrothers, and they were 8/10/12 years older. I spent my summers in Austin, TX with my dad and stepmom and them. My little brother is 18 mos younger than me."

6:02pm fawnstars

"I was seriously abused by the 3 of them for years in a few different ways..."

6:08pm fawnstars

"There is something that over time you will have to objectify from your past and say, "That is not me""

6:09pm fawnstars

""That was them"

"This is Me.""

6:48pm fawnstars

"I did that with art and poetry, and soooo much anger!!"

6:49pm fawnstars

"Anger directed out can at least be seen and processed through expression eventually.."

7:00pm army_made896

"You truly, truly, truly seem to know me-or at least the charts do. I respond to stimuli with the protection of fire and vehemently defend friends and family. I can hold grudges for decades. It doesn't make much sense to me, ONLY because all of the tards at work act like I'm sooo different and weird. My enemies are fierce, but my friends fiercer."

7:01pm army_made896

"I have plodded through the shadows of life for almost 40 years now--almost to wear a smile physically pains me. I just wish I knew how to make it stop without the obvious solution (one I will not consider)."

7:02pm army_made896

"I'm truly sorry to hear of your childhood, my mother suffered the same fate and if she told me about it while he was alive I'd be doing a life sentence. Maybe she knows that."

7:05pm army_made896

"But you're right, even with a wife that loves me, a new fucking BROTHER with a clairvoyant wife, friends all throughout the Army, a mom and other brother who love me, I feel completely alone. I think the only point of solace I can take in all of this is that the loneliness isn't new; it's been an acquaintance for about 40 years now."

7:06pm army_made896

"i don't mean to bitch or anything, just always interested in what you make of "me""

7:16pm fawnstars

"❤️"

7:17pm fawnstars

"I "make" that you amaze me"

7:18pm fawnstars

"You are truly one of a kind and I am sorry it has been so hard, so far.."

7:19pm army_made896

"thank you. people tell me that, including my shrink, but it appears completely genuine coming from you. what a gal."

7:20pm fawnstars

"You don't see what we see, the same way, but you are VERY special and talented and "selected" for a unique=lonely path"

7:21pm fawnstars

"You actually chose it yourself because you are that strong"

7:21pm fawnstars

"Not everyone can hang lol"

7:24pm fawnstars

"Some of us get to be that awesome.. and you are not alone in that ❤✊❤"

7:35pm fawnstars

"Your commitment to life through the blackness is SO inspiring 🌈 It's only a triumph when it's fucking hard. You are rocking this 🚀🌠🤓"

7:49pm: fawnstars

""I've been soft spoken

Cause I've been afraid

Of only exposing

The way I'm made

An ocean frozen

Alone in space

Untied and broken

Since you're away""

7:55pm fawnstars

"Some of my lyrics.. it's hard to show that blackness... but blackness is depth, the darkest night, the deepest ocean, the breadth of humanity's walk on this plane.. it is a deep well where all creative stars and sparks are formed. 🌑✨"

8:00pm army_made896

"oh we smell our own, trust me. you are not the tainted soul that i have retreated to, but i do see dark parts. i guess without dark there isn't light?"

8:01pm army_made896

"man it must be a trip being married to someone so cerebral"

11:12pm fawnstars

"Though I know him better than I know you, it seems you are both so similar.. very deep, underneath. Christian is lucky in being loved this life and does not appear "wounded" in the way I am but he is so gentle and focused on love this lifetime that he can "see" and understand and tap in to the heart. You are both so capable of going in between head and heart, rare in anybody really.. but especially the male gender."

11:53pm army_made896

"wow--yea it's very apparent that i mean nearly NO ONE like me. it's a curse, trust me. it makes us too aware, both inwardly and outwardly, at least for me. I wish to be a simpleton, maybe even someone mentally retarded or deficient. They don't have time to worry and talk themselves in and out of things."

11:53pm army_made896

"meet* nearly"