it's easier not to think of you not to still want you not to wish you were still in my life it's easier

It's easier to let you go to move on and have the only piece of you left is what I learned from you but is it wrong I wish you hurt me worse I wish you would have use words to tear me down so I could hate you instead of you being there for me when I need you I wish you would have just left me to suffer on my own that way I would have been completely okay with letting you go even though that's how I feel and this is something I wish I'm still letting you go because you can't give me what I need sometimes I still wish I could talk to you sometimes I still think of you but it's easier