Don't leave me, expecting to be friends

I'm not like that, that's not who I am.

If I give you my heart, and you give half of it back, don't expect a friendship bond.

No

I don't "date" I don't "ask someone out" I wait 

I wait until I'm sure, and truth be told I am never sure

I have gone out with someone, but I have never went out on a date.

It's always been, lets date and that's it

But, I don't know what I am doing

Dating or being with someone has always been because I was bored, and no matter how cruel that sounds 

I can't help it

I am never able to put my full commitment into it

Never 

but I do love and I try to love as much as I can

I'm scared to leave when there nothing but a thin string attaching us

I don't feel sad or emotionally unstable when it all ends...I feel normal just like before.

 Maybe I am not capable of 'love' and I am fit to be alone. I'm fine with that....but when all my friends are with someone you learn to distance yourself and use the power off switch, I love my friends and I hope the best for them

But how can they be so sure, how can they look like such a couple goals

when I look like alone when I am not

Don't expect a friendship, the sense of an awkward aura around us promised to form, just give up and I will act as if you don't exist. 

I gave you whole

and all I got was a half and a simple "sorry"