*Tamaki’s POV*

He was beautiful. And I mean absolutely captivating. If you stared at him too long, he took your breath away. Unless you’re me. Then on first sight, you feel your heart skip a beat and your mind start to race as you find it harder and harder to breath just being around his stunning beauty. He is the perfect picture of a man. The way he walks, the way he talks, his sweet smile, and that adorable laugh. Then there’s his captivating eyes and his warm, but sassy attitude.

It’s a shame I don’t have the courage to speak with him. Every time I look at him, I freeze up. I am quiet and tend to keep to myself. I prefer not to associate with others. Too many people have tried to get close to me and once they learn more about me and my secrets they always leave. After a while you get tired of the games and the heart ache. You realize that the only person who would never hurt you, is you. Until you start to self-doubt, which I am very bad at.

The only thing I look forward to is coming to college every day and seeing him. Just his smile brightens my day so much! Too bad he will never notice me. He is a couple grades lower than me. And even if he wasn’t, he still wouldn’t notice me. While I am quiet and hide away from the world, he is sassy and stands out. He is smart and will fight for what he believes in. It’s like he has no fears at all, whereas it is as if I am afraid of everything. I do not want to be around others, for fear of being hurt. I do not want to associate with the outside world, for fear of being judged. I cannot be myself around anyone because the only person I can trust is myself.

I really want to speak to him. I want him to notice me. I want him to make me open up to him and actually trust someone. I want him to comfort me and stand by me no matter what. I want him to be the one to bring me out of my shell and make me see the world in a different light. I want to be able to call him mine and him call me his. I want him to change my life for the better.

But how do you achieve all this when you don’t even have the balls to approach him? How do you even go about getting what you want when you are basically a ghost to the world?

I am suddenly snapped out of my thoughts when I feel someone staring at me. I peek up and see that it is in fact him staring at me. When we make eye contact, he smiles at me. I look away, blushing a deep shade of red. ‘Crap! How long was I staring at him in order for him to notice me?! I was way too wrapped up in my thoughts on him!’ I think to myself as I will my cheeks to cool down back to their normal temperature.

I am still looking at the ground, trying to calm my racing heart, when I hear footsteps coming towards me. I peek up and notice that he is making his way across the classroom to me. I internally panic. ‘Why would he be coming over here?! Is he coming to fuss at me? Is he coming to tell me my staring made him uncomfortable and yell at me? I hope he doesn’t yell at me in front of everyone!’ I am once again knocked out of my thoughts, this time when I see a smallish hand waving in my face. I look up to notice he is now right in front of me and oh my lord, he is even more gorgeous up close! I feel my face start to heat up and I will it to go down so that I don’t embarrass myself even more.

“Hello there. I noticed you looking at me, but it looked like you were a little zoned out. Is everything okay?” I hear him ask me in his melodic voice. I look down at my hands and begin playing with my thumbs, and I answer him softly, almost in a whisper, hoping he doesn’t question me more, “Yes, everything is fine. I’m sorry I was staring. It wasn’t intentional.” He flashes his adorable smile at me before speaking again, “I have seen you in quite a few of my classes, but I notice you don’t talk much, and you never really sit with anyone. Do you not have friends? Or is it just a dislike for people?” I shrug my shoulder before looking up at him, still standing in front of my seat, “Both. The last causes the first. Doesn’t really matter since no one wants to talk to me or be friends anyway.”

“Now, why do you say such a thing? If you want the truth, I don’t really care for people either. But I’d really like to know you!” He tells me with a flirty wink, and I think my heart stopped right then and there. ‘Is… Is he flirting with me? That can’t be right… he is one of the popular guys who has tons of friends and who everyone loves. There is no way he is flirting with me. This is probably just some joke.’ I think to myself as I stare at him in disbelief.

“So, cutie, think I can get your number? Maybe hang out some time and get to know each other better?” He asks me while handing me his phone, opened to the page to add a new contact. I slowly take his phone from him, watching for any reaction that this is all a big joke, but he just flashes me a huge smile. I enter my number in and quickly hand him back his phone before I ruin this moment.

“Hmm… your name is Tamaki… that’s so cute! I love it! Well Tamaki, I will make sure to contact you on my lunch break, so you have my number as well! I hope we can get along well and get close,” he turns and starts to walk away. But before he gets too far, he turns back to face me.

“By the way, my name is Shinso!” he says and then walks back to his seat towards the front of the classroom, talking to a guy with blonde hair once he sat down.