“Wait a second, I can’t see anything-” he walked into the bathroom and slammed the door behind him. Usually he takes his time to make it quiet so uh. Wait he can’t see? Like… he doesn’t wear glasses…

I heard a groan from the bathroom and then the door swatted open again, “and I guess I’m not cooking then! Wait, didn’t you want a salad?”

I looked at him confusingly, “first off why can’t you cook, secondly yes I do want a salad you don’t have to cook anything.”

He sighed in relief, “okay good because I don’t trust myself right now with cooking shit,” he walked back to the kitchen and got the lettuce from the fridge.

Wait a second firstly he didn’t answer my fucking question secondly he said shit without covering it up!? Where’s Ashton!?

He did all that shit and instead of watching him I just got more and more progressively angry, eventually I blew my fuse.

“Ashton fucking- whatever your name is fucking answer my first question or else I will decapitate your kidney!”

He looked over at me, “I don’t remember your first question…” he sounded a bit embarrassed, as he should be.

“Why can’t you cook right now? Is it lack of sleep or something?”

He sighed but didn’t say anything. What? Was there something wrong with what I said? Fuck no!

“Answer me, damn it!” I yelled at him.

“I-it’s embarrassing… it’s really not that important anyways…”

I furrowed my brow, “Ashton! It is important!”

“Really?” he asked, “I didn’t think that… you’d care enough to care…”

“First off that doesn’t make sense. Care enough to care? Secondly I do fucking care Ashton, you dumb fuck!”

He fidgeted with his hands and sat down across from me, “well it’s just- ugh this is embarrassing but only to like- me. I don’t know… I have no idea why this embarasses me it just does.”

“Just say it.” I said blankly.

“Well it’s just that I wear contacts and I can’t exactly see the food that close.”

I did a face palm, “REALLY!? That’s what you’re embarrassed about!?”

“And I lost my last contact…”

“HOW!?” I am riled up as heck.

He chuckled awkwardly, “I always wear them overnight and then they’re gone the next day…”

“Oh my god… you dumb puppy…”

“So… you maybe… wanna… hmm…” he didn’t know what to say did he.

“So maybe you maybe wanna EAT SOMETHING YOU DUMB BITCH!?”

“Oh shoot I forgot about eating,” he stood up and got a microwave meal from the freezer, “it’ll do for now, right Shawn?”

I am gonna kill him in cold blood oh my god why can’t he take care of himself!? “NO ASHTON! Make yourself a salad!”

I am making this poor man feel more and more awkward, my god, “oh yeah, forgot I had extra lettuce,” he grabbed some lettuce, put gross shit on it, and then sat down at the table. Yes he had a fork and so did I when eating salad.

God damn, I get to watch this fucker eat!? He looks so fucking cute and hot at the same time, jesus christ I’m gonna explode. Lips lips lips LIPS LIPS LIPS I WANNA PUT MY LIPS ON HIS AND KISS I WANNA KISS HIM.

He looked up at me, “are you alright kid? You look red.”

I shook my head and flapped my hands, “nono, it’s fine- I-I’m just… I don’t know.”

He stopped eating, “are you sure you’re alright? You can tell me the truth.”

“I-I need to get away-” I stood up and speed walked to the couch. I can’t deal with this anymore I’m like a robot that needs a fucking reboot. I haven’t been restarted in ages.

I wrapped the blanket on the couch so that all I could see was blanket.

Then I heard footsteps. Fuck fuck fuck fuCK FUCK FUCK.

“Shawn? Please… tell me the truth…” he sat down near my feet.

I sat up, the blanket moved away from my face and the top half of my body. I was looking straight at him.

“I-I… um…” my hands started flapping again and I looked away from him.

“Shawn… you can tell me anything, I won’t judge you, alright?”

I stopped and looked at him, “I…” I felt everything getting sweaty, “s-since our first date I… I’ve been thinking about… a lot and I-” I started tearing up, “I-” I inched my hand towards his shoulder, I wanted to grab it.

He moved closer to me, he wanted me to grab it.

I grabbed his arm and moved closer to him, he put his hands on my face.

W-we… we kissed. Like actually. It wasn’t that long… but… it was the first one. One of many.

I eventually let go, looking up at him, “A-Ashton… I…”

He hugged me unexpectedly, “I love you too, Shawn.”