We know that a lot of the readers that are subscribed to this series are probably depressed or have some type of mental issue.
When you or somebody else has a mental issue, we are specifying on depression and anxiety, we tend to cling on to someone.
I have this problem, I cling onto my friends because of my depression and anxiety.
I do cling onto my friend and this has caused the problem of jealousy. And it's like you need them and you don't want anyone else to have them, but you don't want to date them. It's like you are using them as something to rely on.
My friend has dated other people and I have gotten jealous. Because you want them to yourself. They are like the cure to your anxiety and depression. And you trust them the most and feel like you can tell them anything and everything, but at the same time you can't because you're scared that if you do you'll ruin your relationship, but it's not like you want to date them.
We tried dating, but I didn't feel anything, it didn't ho anywhere and I could tell she was getting tired of it because I knew she liked me and she confessed and I rejected knowing that I would hurt her because I probably didn't actually love her and that I just needed her. But I ended up accepting in the end and then we were dating.
The relationship went nowhere, it was just like we were still best friends.
I brought up the topic of dating and I told her about that I didn't like physical contact and I feel uncomfortable and that I just didn't want anyone else to have her, and then we broke up.
I was sad, but not sad for myself. I was sad for her because I knew I probably hurt her feelings and that she was just pretending, but she also has depression and anxiety. So she probably is pretending.
Then the next thing is: How do we solve this?
How do we solve this, we could come to reality that you can't hold them back from happiness because of your own self necessity for them. But it's not like you can just find someone else to replace them, because they have to move on to be happy.
And when someone else takes them, you cheer them on, but you're just pretending. In the inside you're just slowly losing the rest of all your emotions because they are no longer there for you to rely on.
Then what do you do, you can't replace them, therapy?
Therapy isn't an option here. Because you're always pretending your okay, but your actually not. And as for me I hide this because I want others to rely on me.
Have any alternate solutions?
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