An annoying buzzing sound wakes me.

“Shit!” Scott whispers angrily before ever so gently peeling back the covers and shifting out of bed and tiptoeing into the hall.

Who on Earth is calling at this hour? It was gone 2 when we finally called it a night! We spent the whole day shopping around London and checking out some local haunts, after yesterdays suggestion that moving in together is on the table I have been walking on air, it took all my willpower not to phone Sam and tell her all about it but no Elliot! Patience. Let’s not jump the gun too much.

After a few minutes’ curiosity got the better of me and I silently crept to the door that was left slightly ajar to eavesdrop.

I could hear Scott’s muffled voice- he sounded angry! In all our years together, I have never heard him angry he was such a gentle person, he had to be putting up with a princess like me.

“Yeah so what?” He hissed at whoever was on the other side of the phone “Elliot is here asleep right now; do you have any idea how risky that is?” A sense of dread washes over me, my Scott would never… “I’ve told you before and this is the last time I will say this. Me and you? A mistake. A disgusting mistake I love Elliot, I want to be with Elliot for the rest of my fucking life, so you had best keep your mouth shut about what happened!”

No, no no no no no no no not my Scott… he wouldn’t cheat on me he couldn’t… There was no denying what it sounded like. My heart was breaking I could feel it physically ripping in two at the words, but no tears fell, not yet.

“I choose Elliot. I will always choose Elliot; it was a momentary lapse in judgement that will never happen again. I’m going to block your number and you won’t tell him a damn thing do you hear me? I will ruin your whole fucking life if you even try!” He let’s out a huff and storms outside, probably for a smoke but I’m still frozen, my body refusing to move.

It wasn’t meant to be this way how… how dare he?! I have given that man everything, my heart and soul belongs to him! Finally, the tears begin to flow as I methodically make my way back to the bed and climb in. I’ve got to keep it in for now, I can’t process any of this!

Can I forgive this? The answer comes as soon as I asked the question- no I can’t. Cheating princes don’t exist in my fairy-tale. I wipe the tears away and pretend to be asleep, before long Scott returns and wraps his arms tightly around my waist pulling me to him again.

Cheat.

Pretending I’ve only just woken up I groan softly and nestle closer; this is the last time we will ever touch after all.

“Baby did I wake you? I’m sorry I needed to pee.” Liar.

I lift myself up and peer at him in the darkness “You smell of smoke.”

Not catching the heartbroken tone of my voice, he lets out a small laugh “Yeah, we drank so much earlier I fancied one more smoke, go back to sleep baby.”

He goes to pull me down, but I resist, one more smoke huh? Without giving it to much thought I kiss him, putting all my love and devotion into it, running my fingers all over his face to memorise it. The stubble on his face, the way his curls land just above his ear, that scar on his chin I adore so much.

He reacts with a smile against my lips, not realising this is my goodbye.

Our tongues dance beautifully together as I continue my exploration of his body, touching and tasting every part of him. We make love gently tonight; I need to have every part of him one last time.

With the sun peaking through the window and to the sound of Scott’s soft snores I finally drag myself out of that bed with a heavy heart and quietly collect all of my belongings that have accumulated here over the years. Thankfully he’s a heavy sleeper or I’d never be able to leave.

The coward’s way out I know, but how could I face him? Tell him I overheard how he told this person he loved me and only me yet still cheated. Still betrayed me. No, it’s better this way to just leave him so he can’t make up any excuses for what he’s done, or maybe he won’t even try to hide it! I’m not sure what would hurt more. With my bag full I walk into the kitchen and start my note.

Scott.

I never thought I would ever have to do something like this, as far as I was concerned, we would move in together, get married and even adopt a few kids before growing old together. We were endgame you and me.

But I heard you last night, heard you talking to the person you cheated on me with. I have a million questions going around my head, was it a man? Woman? I’m not sure what would hurt more. When did you find the time? Was it my fault for working too hard? How could you? How could you Scott?

But I hope to never hear the answers to those questions, I’ve taken all my stuff and you will never see me again, there is no excuse good enough, no reason I care for.

Even now I wish you all the best, I love you Scott and I will always love you. My one and only prince.

Goodbye.

The page was saturated with tears by the time I had finished but it was done, with shaking hands I put the pen down and walked out that door, my heart shattered but my head held high.