Nightmare 04 – Somehow, I felt it wasn't bad at all

Chairs were lined up in rows, which continued to rise in a slanting position filling most of the structure where I currently reside. In the center front, there was a monitor big enough for the whole audience if this place were to be full. Looking at it for a moment, I recognized that it was a cinema.

I was sitting on one of the chairs gazing at the screen. There were no video playing so it was natural that everything inside this place was dim. There was no one beside me as well.

Why am I here?

"Why am I here?"

I jumped at my seat, startled not because someone had just spoke my thought. It was because of that "someone." Her voice was echoing loudly and I could feel shivers when I hear it. I shifted my vision to my left.

And like what had I expected, there she was, sitting beside me.

The girl in white.

"Why are you here?" she asked maliciously as she noticed me. She emitted blood lusting aura as she started to stand up.

I was still surprised to see her again but I did not let it stop me from keeping my distance to her. I had retreated few meters between her when she had completely stood up. From my position, I asked her.

"Are you going to kill me again?"

I had just remembered it after I heard her voice but this was the same girl in my nightmare yesterday night. I didn't know why I was I meeting her again like this. If her attitude were like before then she would try to kill me again.

"I killed you already." It was a hardcore sentence for her to say bluntly. "Why are you still alive?"

It seemed that this was a continuation of the first nightmare. But unlike it where there was a light post, this time in this dim place, I could clearly see that she was glowing. Her height and everything about her was exactly the same. She also had the memories of killing me, while I, as well, had the memories of dying.

However, she seemed unaware that we are just in a world of fantasy, a product of mind. Should I tell her that I am only in a nightmare?

"If you won't answer then I just have to kill you again." A knife suddenly appeared in her right hand again as if it was produce out of thin air. She clutched on it tightly as she walked forward again.

"Hey, wa-wait! Why do you want to kill me?" I asked frantically.

"I will kill you."

It's not use. She isn't answering my questions… Damn it!

I was constantly stepping back to keep my distance from her. If she were to be in the strike zone, I would probably killed immediately.

Isn't she supposed to help me recover my past memories…? The thought occurred to me. At the same time, I also thought that it was pretty unreasonable to expect help from someone who wanted to kill me.

"Say." I stopped retreating and just stood still on my place. "Can you just answer a single question then? If you do, I shall offer my head to you."

"…" The girl stopped walking.

I doubt I could get any answers from her anyway. But if I do this, she might just at least give me consideration.

She stood there silently, her hair still. The white gown she wore were in perfect white without any stain nor sign of dirt. And without any change, her face as well, remained emotionless. If it were in a scale out of ten, one would probably think that she was a creep or an eerie person. The rest would think she's either a ghost or a monster.

The cinema was in a silent, cold atmosphere.

I let out a deep breath.

"…Do I know you?"

Soon as I said that—

The ground and the building shook. The cold temperature became freezing. I could hear the concrete walls cracking and the screen fell apart. Suddenly, all the chairs floated in the air.

The ground vibrated stronger. I crouched on one knee as I lifted my neck to see the girl in front.

What is…happening…? Is she doing this?

"…You… You seriously joked about that?"

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Her voice was endearing yet unearthly. It was sad.

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All of my hairs stood, and my instinct was screaming to run away right this instant but my body refused to move, as if I was petrified in place. Her voice indicated anger and wrath upon me. Her bloodlust was intense more than ever.

I could feel her eyes piercing at me as she uttered heavy words.

"Did you…really?"

A loud sound erupted. And before I noticed it, the ceiling had been already gone, the sky beyond it was nothing but darkness. The walls started crumbling too, and the floating chairs smashed themselves upon one another, and just after a moment, the cinema had vanished without a trace.

The only source of light, was ironically, the girl who was made by darkness.

She had caused this disaster. A monster who inflicted death and destruction.

Yet why?

"Did you really…forgot about me?"

Why do you always seem so sad?

The world of darkness stilled and I stood up to approach her. I extended my hand to hold her as I spoke, "Hey… Are you alrig—"

"I'm fine." She smiled devilishly. Her sad expression vanished. "I should be asking that to you instead, you know that?"

My words, along with my right hand—was cut.

"Ahh! My hand…!" I shouted, blood gushing out from my severed hand.

"Does it hurt?" She asked mockingly. "However, your pain could not compare to how I feel."

It hurt… However, seeing her in suffering brought me a different kind of pain as well.

"I am, right now, close to breaking."

She slowly pushed the tip of her knife in my stomach.

"Can you imagine someone you love telling you that they had forgotten about you?"

I could feel the cold metal entering, and piercing my insides.

"I have waited for you…" All of the blade, from tip to the base, penetrated me. And as I coughed blood, she put her hands around me. It was very firm, more than a hold rather than a hug. She squeezed me with all her strength. "Death would not even compare to this."

For some reason, the pain from my severed hand and pierced stomach disappeared and I could not fell anything but coldness.

"…" It seemed like speaking was beyond my capability now. My mouth moved to form the words but no sound came.

The girl continued hugging me. "If we cannot be together in this world then surely, it would work out in the next one."

Her silent whisper floated in the darkness. Even while my consciousness was drifting, I could still hear her voice clearly.

"I'll free you from any suffering. So please, let's just die together."

It was an earnest wish for this unexplainable girl.

At the same time, it was a curse to me. A curse that somehow…

Somehow, I felt it wasn't bad at all.