I was never a very affectionate person, I always thought I had to keep my distance from men so that there wouldn't be any misunderstandings about my sexual orientation, but now I see myself doing things quite out of character for me. I don’t know if the divorce brought back some insecurities or if Jake has really warmed my heart even further with his decision to support me through this difficult time. The strange thing is, they feel so natural. It's like there's something pulling me towards Jake. When we're at home, I can't help but be near him and touch him every chance that I get.

I think he started to notice this change and has started to embrace it or so I'd like to think. I have become a complete soft boy, a whore for Jake's attention which makes me sick to my stomach and at the same time eager for more.