Chase's soliloquy

Two things were repeating in my head. My teachers constantly telling me to pay attention and Serenity's voice. Mostly Serenity's voice. It was the way she had said it, the way she had initiated it. The thought of her speaking gave me goosebumps.

I mean, I could have guessed she was going to like him. Almost anyone would fall in love with him at first sight. Especially when you get to know him. How he's actually sweet and nice. And his smile, how it's so contagious. And the way he laughs...anyone would fall in love with him. Anyone.

And it's none of my business, who he involves himself with. He can be friends with anyone and can date anyone. I'm not his mom. I'm just his friend. Someone who hangs out with him at the park. And that's all I'll be. His friend.

But why is it bothering me so much? Shouldn't friends be proud of each other when something like this happens? Have I ever really had a good friend? Is Robin my first? Is it the fact that Robin is my first true friend that has me so worked up?

I fucking hate the feeling. Especially when I think of the girl's face, how she pulled him in and he got caught on her hook.

I hate this feeling.