One of my teachers threatened she would send me to the VPO if I didn't pay attention. I didn't pay attention and she didn't send me to the VPO, but there was going to be a parent-teacher call so whoop dee do. To be honest I didn't learn an ounce of anything today and I didn't see Robin whatsoever. I had already sent him four texts saying I was sorry, yet he hadn't responded. I was falling apart every minute and debated what to do. I didn't do anything.

"Chase, are you sure you are okay? You seem...weird. Weirder than normal." My brother expressed his concern multiple times today but I just told him everything was fine. Everything should be fine. It didn't have to turn out that way. I could be having the time of my life...I could be prepared to go to Robin and everything would be fine. And on top of all this stress, I was dead tired. I almost passed out in English and Mrs. Gibbler did yell at me. But then again when is she not yelling at me.

"I'm just extremely tired." Which was true. I wasn't lying about that. But I wasn't telling the full truth.

"When we get home you should sleep, you look like you were skyrocketed to Alabama.

"Well, geez, thanks, Jace." My twin gave me a thumbs up then continued to eat his food. I didn't have the appetite to eat anything.

I slammed the door to my room then began to pace back and forth. My mind kept on racing on all the possible things that had happened after I left. Why did Robin not come to school today? Is he mad at me? What have I done?

"Chase, I'm being serious, tell me what's wrong."

"Nothing is wrong!" I yelled at Jace.

"Okay then explain to me why you are pacing on the floor and yelling at me for no reason. I know it's not because you are tired. Tell me what is wrong." Jace's voice hardened at the last sentence.

"I can't! I just can't tell you!" I wasn't about to make my brother hate me. I loved him so much and I don't want this to ruin it.

"Why not? Chase we are brothers...twins! We tell each other everything!"

"I still want you to like me! That's why! Because if I tell you, you will hate me forever. You will be so disgusted, never want to touch me, wouldn't look at me, wouldn't breath the same air as me! You would hate me for the rest of your life!" I was tempted to grab a hold of Jace's shoulder and just shake him 'till he understood.

"Nothing in the world would ever...ever, make me hate you. You are my twin, nothing will change that. I won't hate you and you can trust me on that. I swear on my whole life." It is so hard to tell him. He already hates Robin as it is....me kissing him is a whole other thing.

"I did something, and I don't know what to do."

"What did you do?"

"I kissed someone."

"And?"

"It was a boy." Jace rolled his eyes at me.

"Was that it? You kissed a boy? What's got you so—"

"Jace it was Robin. I kissed Robin." That sure did shut him up.

"Oh. Okay well that makes sense. Yeah." He was taking this surprisingly normal. "Why would I hate you for that?"

"One, it's Robin. Two, Robin is a dude. Aren't you disgusted by that?"

"Well, you can go around kissing boys, sure. Would I chose Robin as one of them...maybe not. But I definitely wouldn't be disgusted at it."

"Jace I don't know what the fuck to do. He didn't come to school today and he hasn't answered my text messages."

"Wait, who kissed who first?" Jace sat in the edge of my bed while he looked out the window.

"I kissed him first. I pushed him back which makes no sense because I kissed him first. I don't know what to do." I whined at Jace who seemed to be thinking this through a whole lot.

"Okay, he hasn't answered you. Maybe something happened at home. There has to be a reason for this." I nodded.

"Fuck. Shit. Oh my god." I widened my eyes then began to pace once again.

"What? What?" Jace stood up and went next to me.

"Was Serenity here today?" Jace shook his head. "You got to be fucking kidding me." Jace seemed so confused.

"Did she do something?" Oh yeah, Jace still thinks she's a perfect little angel.

"She...she's a mess. She did it on purpose. I know she did."

"Chase you are so confusing. Tell me what happened." Today has been a bad day.

"She suddenly got all touchy with him. She only did it in front of me. I know she was doing it on purpose. That's probably where he is. Trying to get the memory of that out of his head. I messed up!" I could tell Jace found that hard to believe but he went with it anyways.

"When did you kiss him?" Oh hell Jace doesn't know about the park.

"I go to the park everyday and meet Robin there. We just talk about stuff, nothing really happens."

"Oh."

"I mean I would have told you but you would lock me up in my room forever."

"Well that is not false." I sighed.

"I don't even know if he will go to the park. He might never go there anymore."

"That's probably not true. He will most likely go again."

"Yeah, but he won't be so keen about me being there. Robin probably hates me now." Jace shook his head and placed a heavy hand on my shoulder. Very different form Robin's hand.

"I highly doubt that. I hate to admit it, but you guys seemed happy. I don't think that will change anything. To be honest, he seemed to really like you. He always had a big smile when he was with you. I mean for all you know he might have liked the kiss." I shrugged.

"And if he didn't?"

"Don't worry about that. Everything will turn out fine." So I trusted Jace on his word.

I arrived at 1:04 but he wasn't there. I don't know what I expected. I was only hoping he would show but in the back of my mind, I knew he wasn't.

I sighed loudly while I walked to the swings. I tripped over the mulch about a hundred times then collapsed on the swing. "Dammit." I softly slapped my forehead until it actually stung. "Chase, you're such a fuck up." Here we have a Chase who is bing extremely self destructive. I wanted to cry so bad. At this point I don't even know why. Everything I was expecting to happen, happened. It just began to hurt so much.

I jumped off the swings and ran around a bit 'till I was tired and ready to go home.

"Jace, he wasn't there." I banged on my twin's door as soon as I got home. I didn't wait for him to open the door, I just barged in. "He didn't show."

"You went?" I nodded. "Give him some time."

"How long?" I whined to my brother.

"However much time he needs."

"Well he needs to hurry up." I muttered while my brother laughed.

"Relax, everything will sort itself out in the end."