I stood there behind the glass wall ......wrapped in wires I was sure I had predicted everything ...I was sure I had guessed how things would play out it took me a lot of energy ..a lot of time to establish myself now I couldn't even defend the most important person to me . My memories got blurred the more at the same time the rushed into my head at voice making blood run down my nose and mouth .

I could remember a lot of things , when we first met ....

His first words to me 

First time he saw me cry 

The numerous times he saved my life 

The way he treated me 

The second family he gave me 

And all I could do was stand there ...I couldn't help  I couldn't save him I could nt scream I couldn't move 

I was human yet I couldn't control my will and my body 

I stood there watching him suffer ..how funny though his the one in pain I seemed to hurt the more .do you know how it feels to sit and watch the one you love abused and want to help but cant want to scream but cant I feel like the entire universe is sucking away my soul ...I feel like am forgetting who I was and even who I am I don't know how long I can take this I don't know how long I can watch this but am sure ..am pretty sure I can't anymore 

I could remember his words ....

when you know what you want to fight for then you will have your will ...

Does that mean I don't value him enough ...noo ....NOOOO ..WHAT ARE YOU DOING ...I CARE ABOUT HIM I KNOW I DO 

its just I don't know why I can't do anything ...maybe ..just maybe I may really not be HUMAN ANYMORE ...........