We were both in our underwear now and i didnt see a way out of the is, this is the last step i dont care what the world thinks anymore, not my mother or Aaron, i wasted my years wanting him and i see that now. He surveyed my body slowly and carefully then reached over to the night stand and pulled out a condom. He tore the package with his teeth and proceeded to put it on. I looked away i guess it is a habit since shower rules. He turned off his light then proceeded to kiss em and let his hands roam my body. He began kissing me again and slowly pulling down my briefs. Before i knew it they were around my ankle, i just kicked them off and got it over with. He put two fingers in his mouth and sucked on them. Good god i have a feeling this is going to hurt more than a bit, or at least feel weird.
He opened my legs a bit wider and traced my entrance with his index finger, then inserted.It was a very foreign feeling that i wasnt expecting. i clenched around his fingers tighter and tighter the deeper he pushed them. He began pulling and pushing them out of me causing me to grip the sheets and curl my toes. He began pushing his fingers in even faster and harder and leaned down loser to me. I was too blinded with the sensation to even process his words, i just agreed.
"Do you want more?"
I lost my cool. He took out his fingers and lined himself with me.Here goes nothing. Just as he was about to thrust into me ther was a knock on teh door.It nearly sared teh dear life out of me.
"Cameron can we talk."
It was Aaron, seriously right now of alltimes. I need to get rid of him, i am hard an di dont think i need to see Mr.Helga right now.
"Cant it wait until morning?"
"No i need to speak to you now."
"In teh morning i am tired."
"The door isnt locked i will just come in."
"O-Ok fine go sit downstairs no need to wake Eric ill b edown in a sec."
As soon as his feet left the door i ran into teh bathroom, what a night. I quickly rubbed it out and got on my clothes, poor Eric was on teh bed looking disapointed. Poor thing.I slipped out of teh room and went downstairs and sat on teh couch, it felt weird. He was in his underwear.Why though he is easily old an dalway swear lots of cothes. He just sat there looking at me.
"Cam why is your hair a mess?"
"Fuk off with the questions im tired of them what do you want?"
"I want to know if you woud sleep with me."
"No. There you have your talk, im going back to bed."
"I didnt mean liek how we used to. Show me whats so good about being gay."
He i sfucking with me right, he doesnt want us to sleep in the same room, he means sex. Fuck this, im going back to bed where hopefully there is a naked Eric waiting, im done with Aarons bull shit. The emotional risk isnt worth it, if he hates it we all know whathe is going to say or worst what he might do, and two i really like Eric he has had my back since day one while Aaron has been a complete ass.
"Forget about it Aaron, im going bak to bed. The risk i would be taking isnt worth your satisfaction, or hppiness, or whatever you had planned to gain from it. I dont know you anymore, im going back to bed."
I walked up those stairs an ddidn look back, i know if i do i will loose my nerve. I went back into teh bedroom to find Eri dressed an dspread out on teh bed, so much for my hopes, i shoved some of his limbs over an dclimbed in. Just when i thought i was going to get laid, but maybe its for the better,who knows what could have happened.
I woke up an di was alone in the bed, hm guess he is getting used to waking up early, thats good. When i got downstairs they were standing in the kitchen talking,by the looks on their faces neither one of them were enjoying it. i leared my throat as i entered, slid past them and made myslf a bowl of cerial. They both stopped talking when i entered. Geez i guess they really like their privay. I went into the living room an dturned on the tv hwen i heard Eric plopped down next to me seemin very tired.
"Just Aaron being an ass."
"Being an ass about what?"
"He clearly thinks that he owns you in some way."
"What do you mean."
"Woke me up this morning talking about i should keep my hands to myself because he had you firs and all that bull."
"Unbelievable,last night he asked me to sleep with him, going on anout he wants to see whats so good about being gay. I just walkeed away wht more was i supposed to do? I damn well wasnt going to agree."
I threw my head back and was already thinking about summer, on week away , only one more lousy week to go. I heard foot steps approaching and out of nowear i ffelt a pair of lips kiss kiss me o teh nek.I immediatly looked to my left, but Eric was fast asleep next to me.I turned around and it was Aaron.
He placed his hand over my mouth and dragged em out of teh couh, i tried to kick Eric but i couldnt. He dragged me off to my room and closed the door. I was tossed on the bed an dheld down, he shoved a balled up pair of socks in my mouth and taped it.
"You should have taken the offer when i gave it to you."
No what is he going to do to me, why didnt Eric wake u, why did he stay aseep.
"No worries Eric wont be waking up , maybe it was something he drank."
He took off his shirt then crawled on teh bed i immediately ran for teh door but he tripped me. He dragged me by teh ankles an ddragged me back to the bed. He punched me in teh nose and taped my hand with ducktape. Why wouldnt he tie my feet, or does he need them for SOMETHING ELSE. Took off his pants next and turned up teh heat in the house, he sat on the egde of teh bed with his backe turned t me.
"You know cam it took me a while to wrap my head around things, an dwhen i finally did you rejected me."
The look he had on hsi fae as he slowly turned around bothered me it was cold unfeeling, his once joyous brown eyes were now hollow.
"To tell you teh truth, spending o much tim ein your room made me realize how much fun times we had in here since we were kids, the pillow forts, teh video games under the the covers and you know whih one hit me the hardest, that time when i showed you porn while our mothers were past out in the livingroom from clubbing all damn week. I should have known, i hardly remembered what we watched becaus ewe were so focused o each other teh entire time, jerking off. I thought it was a nightmare in teh morning, yet you had seemed quite comfortable. We were fourteen, i shoud have known you were gay, an dlook what you have done to me. I kissed you today, i expecte dto vomit right after but i didnt i wanted more so much more."
He became quiet and came closer, i scooted farther, i have a bad feeeling about this, wait did i conver a homophobic, i might as well enjoy the thought whie im still alicve. He now had a woolfish grin on his face as he grabbed my calves adn pulled me closer. I was pushed onto my back and squirming, no i am not going to get raped, not by him. He pulled my tights down and just stared at my briefs, my tights were now at my ankle an di have a feeling by breifs willl be soon too. He took off teh tights pushed me against teh pillows and grabbed his personal computer. On it was porn, if im corect it was teh same on ewe watched back when we were fourteen, two blonds getting down and dirty. WHat the hell i this going to do. He sighed and opened new tab, is he serious he is going to watch Z Nation on netflix while he does god knows what to me.Thats fucked up. When it began he put teh computer on teh end of teh bed and came to sit behind me. WHen he reached down to my briefs i pulled my legs close to my chest.
"I guess im going to have t tie those up as well."
Aw crap, he grabbed teh duck tape an dgrabbed one of my legs i tried to kick him but i failed.He taped tehm on opposite sies on the bed which was very uncomfortable. He resumed his plae behind me an dgot comfortable on teh mountain of pillows. At this point we were in teh middle of episode ten season two, i guessh he ha sbeen wtching this a while now. He slipped his hand into my briefs and grasped my dick, good god if i could go back in time i would tell fourteen year old me to run for it, things were going to get sour in the long run. When he began pumping i didnt kno wwhat to do i knew i was gettig hard, and fast but at teh sme tim ei didnt wasnt anyone to find m enot like this. Just as i was close he stopped and began to chuckle. I was hot and hard, he pushed me me forward an dpulled down teh back of my briefs i guess he cant take them off with my legs spread so far apart. Wait why is he getting up, he dissapered off into my bathrooman dcame back with scisors. While cutting off my underwear i started thinking about some of teh things i regret, like tryoing on mu moms heeels when i was three, i wanted to get taller, that wasnt teh way. He tossed the drief now reduced to a mear white rag. He once again sat behind me adn this tiem inserted his fingers in my entrance. He scisored his fingers inside me an dit durned, i began dsqirming again but he didnt care, intead he ripped off teh duck tape a dtoook teh sock out of my mouth.
"Kiss me Cam."
He punishingly shoved hsi fingers deeper punishingly.
"I said kiss me."
He brought hsi face closer and pulled my chin towards him, i gave him a quick kiss on the lips and pulled away, he grabbed me by my hair an dmade the kiss longer while forcing his tongue in my mouth. I cant breath, i cnt breath, he began thrusting his fungers once again. I wanted this to be over. When he finally let me go i looked him in the eye.
"Aaron, i sthis really what you want to molest me. Force me to be something i refuse to be. Aaron, it stoo little too late, i want something different."
"But i dont want to be friends forever, i should have seen that a long time ago."
"Its too late please let me go and we can forget abot this, i promise i wont tell a soul, plese let me go."
"Ok but no one can know."
He sighed and took his fingers out of me, cut me free with teh scisors and went to wash his hands. I grabbed my tights put them on grabbed what was left of my briefs an dthrew them away. I went downstairs and tried to wake Eric up.
"He has to sleep it off."
Aaron was behing me again, i hink it is old now. I picked up Eric and navigated my way upstairs into the room, i put him down an dtucked himin.I am going grocery shopping and i will have to leave him alone, i left a note explaining everything except what Aaron did to me an dset out on leaving.
"Hey where are you going."
"I will come."
"No stay with Eric he will have a major head ache when he wakes an dyou need to take care of him."
"Why would i."
"You caused it."
"ill be back in a bit."
"Wait,are we cool."
My back was turned to him an di didnt know how to answer that question so i did what i always did, kept quiet.
"Do you love him?"
"Aaron in times like these i ont know if love is on my mind, you might not have been watching teh news but its teh people who have spoused for decades and years lose teh most people. Wives loose their husbands , husbands loose their wives, i see their pictues on tv an di pray i never feel their pain. A mother lost her little girl who was special needs an dnow she is mourning,she cant even have a funeral, she couldnt even say goodbye.Some children havnt seen their mothers an dfathers in weeks because they are nurses o doctors an dwant to keep their families safe. Right now i dont want anyone to love because i kno wi wont be able to handle loosing them."
With that i put on my mask gloves an dgrabbed teh keys and headed out teh door leaving him there speechless and bumb founded. I was surprised at teh amount of sadness i just poured out. I am ebak with a trunk full an dbegan packing them away. Eric was standing in teh kitchen massaging hsi teples.
"Cam are you ok?"
"Yeah why wouldny i be i just went to gocery shop."
" Aaron told me what he did to you, i know an dim so sorry i couldnt help."
"It's ok i dont think i wanted you to help."
"I didnt want anyone to see me in that position, kind of liek when you wet your bed an dneed to change teh sheets but you are afraid to tell your mom so you wait uni laundry day to slip them in. Its kind of liek that. Now help me with these groceries."
He went out to the car an dgot the rest, we packed away teh foods and watched netflix all day long.Snuggling in teh couch with hsi arms around me was right wherei needed to nbe. My eyes were now open, i didnt need Aaron because he was teh only one that new m, now someone else did an dit felt right, i had wanted the forbidden fruit so badly i was too caught u to explore teh rest of teh tree, now that i have i see i was going down teh right path and i turned around just in time.