As I make it to the bathroom I burst into tears. I muffle my voice so Ty won't hear me. I can do it. When he gets with this guy I'll be happy for him, I mean I am happy for him. Okay. Calm down Caleb. Go out there with a smile.

I splash water on my face before walking back into Ty’s room. “Are you okay?” “I'm perfect,” I say with the biggest and fakest smile I can put on. “Don’t force yourself. I can tell you’ve been crying.” Ty reaches out for my hand, tugging me into his warm embrace where I shed more tears than before.

Ty starts to say something to me but the sound of his voice fades as I drift into his arm. “I love you.” “Just look at you! You’re so pathetic. If only, if only, right? Get over yourself. He never would’ve fallen for you and he isn’t going to start now,” I hear my reflection say as I look into the mirror placed in front of me in this dark room.

“You two will never be able to be together. He’ll never love you, he doesn’t even think of you as a friend! You’re just somebody he’s going to use to fuck and throw away. You are nothing more than a fuckbudy to him. He doesn’t need you for that. He can always ask out the boy of his dreams and be with him, then you’ll no longer be of any use. He’ll throw you away like the garbage you are.”

“That’s not true. He was drunk this time. He’s never done that before. We are best friends and that’s how it’ll always be.” “You were best friends.” Stop! It’s not true. Although I may not have a chance, I know that we'll stay friends forever.

I wake up in a sweat. I’m covered up in Ty’s blankets with Ty nowhere to be found. I’m about to get up, but then I hear the door creak. “I made you some food. Mom and dad aren't back yet so they are probably staying at the hotel.” I flinch when his hand brushes against my cheek. “I’m sorry for falling asleep.” I make quite a bit of distance between Ty and I on the bed.

“Did you not like what I said before you fell asleep?” “What are you talking about? I don’t remember you saying anything to me.” “O-oh, then nevermind.” “What was it? What did you say?” “Nothing. It was not of any importance to worry your pretty little head.” “After I eat I should go home.”