You know, even if all of what you wrote is true.

I can’t but deny the fact you were the one who awakened all of those things in me.

If this is the route were taking, then let’s not talk about the way you flustered at my slightest touch.

Even some times accidentally I could tell it affected you, which way, I’m not sure, but it was in some way or another.

I remembered you loved the most being outside with me, the fresh spring breeze brought a smile to you’re face, I could tell, even if you couldn’t.

And yes, it only took about 6 months into our relationship for you to be able to top me.

And you were amazing at it, There’s still to this day no one that does it like you do.

Might I remind you, I’ve never felt what we had, with anyone else.

To be totally honest, I’ve tried dating other men, but eventually they just lead me towards something I ended up hating. I don’t know how to explain this, maybe it’s the french, but I don’t think that’s the case.

Some of those men with your same build, you were always a little bit more athletic than me. You were part of the basketball team in college after all.

Skinny and athletic, maybe that’s why I fell so hard for you, even before you, I had a strong desire to be with a strong man, it’s just that I never actually admitted it to myself.

I miss you friend, on my lonley nights, my thoughts go to you, and I think about all the things we did together, and how it felt like sometimes I could fall asleep in your arms and let the world simmer away.

Like nothing really mattered and the only person’s alive, where you and me.

-Ton amie, Martin.