So you've come back to see what happens next well, I'm surprised but welcome back i hope your ready!!

So where did i leave off? oh yes around that boy. So this boy was with me none stop when we were "together" and really did make me happy as this really was my first ever relationship with a boy as I'm actually Pan and had dated girls prior to this but really he was my first real love. When we were in that relationship he was really the one but i was really wrong, he decided to break up with me 2 days before my birthday which really hurt. He laughed in my face and his friends joined along, someone had snitched on me harming myself to a teacher and this led them telling my parents they didnt help though all they did was yell.

Fast forward a few months and me and this "Boy" began to have a very odd relationship we werent dating but were together kinda he would hold me close, hold my hand and things like that but it was really tearing me apart now knowing what we were. This would go on for 2 years!!

This boy would go back and forth with being with me leaving me to be with other girls and this just only just the start of my crappy year. 

He would leave me one week and come back another and i allowed it i didnt wanna loose him so i would allow him to come back in my life and just do it all over again. There was even one point when me and my "bestfriend" had this big fight and i had blocked her and next thing i know i was being told her and this boy were together and this completely broke me i was told this i completely stopped everything and i dropped down and cried non stop. I was broken i lost my bestfriend because of this and the boy i loved and i was forced out of the only friend group i had they would mock me when i walked past, they would call me horrid names when i walked past and spread rumors about me and all i did was sit back and deal with all of it. 

Fast forward a few months and things began to go a bit more intense with our "relationship", which im gonna not go into as it very personal and not for this but things escalated and got worse and he was diagnosed with bi-polar so this explained him one minute being super sweet and nice and then the next making me feel really depressed and hurt.

This is when my life began to change.....

To be continued.....