Matthew

I have known Louis for about a month now and I think I am developing feelings for him. Lately when I see him and he gets red I feel a little warm inside. But then I also feel confused because I am straight but I still like him. I have been questioning my sexuality a lot lately and I keep getting so confused by it. Also Louis is straight from what I know. That only makes this more complicated. When I made it to school I sat next to him and we started talking like normal and eventually, I got the courage to ask what he is doing this week's need. After a long pause he said "I am not doing much why?" after that I froze not expecting to get this far. I said "Would u like to hang out this weekend?" he said "That sounds nice" with a big smile on his face. I am not afraid of much but this for some reason scared the hell out of me. The rest of the school week went by normal every day I was looking forward to this weekend. When the weekend finally came I was so excited about us hanging out I cleaned my room for once. Even tho he had seen my room before. I still had no idea why I was so excited about him coming over. It was just something about him that I liked a lot. Every time my phone would ding I would run over to it to see if it was from him. When I saw it wasn't from him I would get kinda sad. When he finally texted me that he was getting ready to come over I got so excited and when he knocked on my door I felt butterfly in my stomach and rushed downstairs to answer the door before my parents could so I wouldn't be embarrassed. When I opened the door it was just my sister who had gotten locked out of the house. I turned around and began to walk up the stairs when Louis walked into my door. I took him by the arm and ran him upstairs with me. l was so excited to finally hang out with him alone. We talked and played games for about an hour eventually I said "Hey... umm... do you want to go on a date" He had a bit of a confused look on his face and after about 30 seconds I said "Sorry that was a stupid question" he said, "No that isn't a stupid question I would love to go do that when do you want to go?" I felt like I couldn't move and hoped he would say something so I just said in a shaky voice "Is tomorrow fine?" "Sounds good" he said. After that, we continued playing our game and eventually ate dinner and he went home. I couldn't sleep at all that night. I eventually fell asleep at 2 am. I woke up the next morning to someone at the end of my bed it was Louis. I asked "How did you get in here" he said "Your sister let me in". I got up really fast and put on something to wear and we left the house.