"i wanted to see you and now that you're here i'm sure of what i'm going to say. listen because i won't say it again. i lied to you. i can't stay by your side anymore like i thought i could. it's not because you turned me down but because you are a part of the side of me i want to lose. 

i have put so much into this more than i have in anything else. you were my everything then and you still are but the fact is that i can't have you and i've accepted that. i don't hate you, i never will. i just can't drag this on for much longer.

i know even though i choose to be your friend, i'll still; think of you all the time, my heart will flutter every time you touch me, i'll want to be with you all the time and be your support at all times, and i'll always want you to treat me like i'm special like the way i treat you. that's not how friends should be.

i don't want to force myself to be close to you just because of all the time we spent together, it's not fair to me or you. i'm sorry i can't be the friend you need me to be, you're just too special to me. it hurts to do this but it hurts more to be by your side.

look, this is goodbye but it isn't goodbye forever. i love you so much, more than you could ever know and because of that i have to let you go. i don't know when i'll come back to you but i know i will somehow. 

i hope one day you'll find someone who you love the way i love you, then you would finally understand what torment i feel right now. i know wishing this is cruel but unlike my situation i hope your love is reciprocated. i wish you happiness, i always have and always will. i only have one favor to ask of you, 

miss me.

miss me as much as you can, remember me whenever you can and never dare forget. that's the least you can do right? you broke my heart after all. no matter what remember i will always love you, even when we meet again i still will. 

remember me as the one who truly loved you first. bye."