When the final bell of the year rang I felt a sense of relief. I was finally free and could go and have fun with Matthew. I had begun to develop deep feelings for him and I was hoping to tell him how I feel this summer. When I got home I went up to my room and listened to some music and just chilled in my room. I heard my phone ring and seen that Matthew asked if I wanted to hang out I said yes obviously. When I got there we went into his back yard and we played some tennis. After that, I was very tired and ready to take a break. We went inside and I got some water when I turned around Matthew was looking at me very intently. "What are you looking at?" this shook him from his fixation he said "What nothing" as he got as red as a cherry. I thought about what if he likes me back but I quickly pushed that thought away as soon as I remembered he is straight. We then talked for a bit and after about an hour of talking, I went home to eat dinner. I was eating my food and I got a text from Matthew "Do you want to do something fun tomorrow?" I said "Yeah for sure". When I woke up the next morning I was getting ready and I got another text from him "I have something to tell you today" when I seen that I got some butterflies in my stomach and I started to think about all the things he could have to say but the one that was on my mind the most was does he like me back? I got into his car but I didn't bring up the thing he had to say so I just ignored it for the time being. When we got to the mall we went window shopping after doing that for about an hour we went to the food court and got some food. When we found a table and sat down I asked about the secret he had. When I asked that he turned red again and froze. I thought I had broken him. When he tried to say something it was very slurred and I couldn't understand what he was saying. After about 3 minutes of him trying to say something he finally said "I think I'm gay" in a very quiet voice. I was very stunned by this bc he gave off a very straight vibe. When he said this I thought about coming out to him too but I said to myself no let's help him first. After we finished eating we went home that was the most awkward drive I have ever experienced and I did not like any of it. I eventually said, "How are you doing?" he said "Good" after that the since become defining and I couldn't handle it at all. When we got home we went our separate ways we didn't have much communication like we usually did before we went to sleep. That night I couldn't sleep so I decided to text him "Hey, are you up?" He replied very fast "Yeah, what's up?" I asked "Can I come over?" he said "Yeah you just gotta be quiet" so I put on dark clothes and snuck out and went over to his house when I got to his room he was shirtless and I froze. He asked why I wanted to come over I said I couldn't sleep and wanted to hang out. He asked if I wanted to watch a movie I said sure. We sat next to each other on his bed. After about an hour of watching the movie, I fell asleep. I woke up in the middle of the night with him cuddling me. I kinda liked the warmth and the feeling so I just went back to sleep.