Note: Alistair has a bipolar disorder and also had severe mood swings and depression. He is suicidal and he has crazy murderous periods of time where he is extremely dangerous. Aight imma shut up now cuz I don't want to spoil any more. 

"If you blinked, you might have missed it. But if you had your eyes open, you would have been blinded."

-Unknown 

Eyes. Too many people's eyes followed me when I walked down the hall, trying to shrink away from their glares. 

He followed me in the corner of my eyes, smirking at me through the flame-like shadows that he was made up of. His yellowish teeth poked out from the inky abyss that was his wide jaws.

I tried my hardest to ignore him, reminding myself that he was just another one of my "episodes". 

He quickened his pace, now hovering over my shoulder.

"You're scared, little one," He chuckled, making a shiver journey down my spine. 

I am, they're watching.

"You tragic little rat," He chuckled again, and fear paralyzed my veins.

He wrapped his icy cold hands around my throat, his fingertips making my skin burn. 

Don't react, don't react, don't react. 

I stood there for a moment, trying to collect myself. 

"Are you okay?" Matt's deep voice made me jump. I turned to see him staring at me with concerned eyes, one of his brows raised.

"I-I'm fine," I stuttered, turning away from him. 

"Are you sure? You look like someone tried to kill you,"

I shivered at his accuracy. 

"I'm fine," I said more firmly, not believing a word that came out of my mouth. 

He looked at me weird. 

"Okay then, and do you want to meet up at my house today for the analyzation bit?" He leaned on the locker next to mine, crossing his arms. 

"S-sure," 

"He will hate you," The voice whispered in a sing-song tone in my head. 

Then he'll never know the true monster.

"Great, I'll wait for you after school," Matt said, the concerned face still playing on his features. 

"Okay,"

I wanted to cry, knowing that this perfectly beautiful man would never love someone as twisted as me. 

I ignored the longing feeling in my chest, knowing i could never satisfy it without hurting him.