*Possible PTSD Trigger be careful*
Radial and I sit in the Infirmary. Liam had called everyone saying he knew a way to wake Novus up. We were the first to come, that was a mistake. I’m uncomfortable as hell. Everyone’s eyes are on me, glaring resentment, “I didn’t ask Yanamarie to come. Just you Radial.” Liam says causing the mood to drop even more,
Radial opens his mouth in which I cover my head,“I suppose that means you don’t know that Yanamarie and Novus are Soulmates if you don’t want her here.”
“I’m sorry?” Rave looks over, his attention now caught as well. Suffocating and embarrassing, “you have to be joking. I’m her Soulmate not her.” Then Liam pauses, he looks at Rave who goes back to reading, then he looks at me, “I see.”
Silence fills the room, Radial stares at the wall then looks at me, “Did I say something wrong?”
“No,” I murmur, “I just don’t want everyone to know, especially Novus.”
“I understand,” He says, “Finding your Soulmate is an emotional connection. Considering how Novus reacts around Liam I understand why you don’t want her to know,” Radial smiles, “Don’t worry, you tell her when you’re ready.”
I smile and the mood lifts, slowly the Pure Lights walk in bringing Caius with them. He pauses when our eyes meet, the glare of resentment causes my body to curl, Rave taps my shoulder, “I punched him when I first met him. I’m sure whatever happened between you two isn’t that bad.”
I lean over towards his bed and whisper, “It is, trust me.”
Caius sits next to Liam on the other side of Novus, “I was told you know why she’s asleep,” Liam nods, “did you see her? What did she say?”
There’s a pause, the pressure of the room made it hard to breathe, “She said,” Liam takes a deep breath, “Tell him, Ultima misses him.”
Caius lets his guard down for only a moment, a tear trickles down his cheek and we could all breathe. Everything built up inside of me burst, “I saw them too,” everyone turns to me. Caius face turns beat red, “I saw them in my dream.”
“You don’t have the right to see Ultima after what you did.”
I stand up, the chair falls, “It wasn’t my fault! You think I wanted to see Ultima or Novus after what I’ve done? They chose to see me. Not you.”
Caius stands up coming face to face, “That’s a lie! Ultima would never forgive you! You killed everyone!”
“That wasn’t me! It was him! Face it Caius, she forgave me and you need to get over yourself!” I went too far. Caius grabs my shirt and pushes me down, I grab Novus’ arm and our eyes glow a bright blue. I begin to drag her down, Rave catches me. On the other side Liam grabs Novus arm to keep her from falling, his eyes glow bright yellow. Novus’ eyes glow a bright green, I close my eyes. Novus lays in my arms, Rave held both of us on the ground. The room goes silent,
Radial smiles and claps his hands together, “That’s it! I knew it! The Soulmate touch is more than just simply telling if you’re Soulmates, it has powers.”
Caius mumbles under his breath and walks over to me towering, “You can say you’ve changed, but you’ve only been out of his control for a week. I know what you’ve done before you even worked for the Unspoken. I know what you did to her.”
My body goes numb, flashes come back from a time I thought I forgot. Novus’ touch no longer calmed me, an overwhelming sadness hit my body like a tidal wave. I’m drowning, drowning in memories I didn’t want to remember. Goosebumps up and down my body, chills going down my spine, I clutch my arms and brace myself attempting to take deep breaths, the world closes in around me. Her, my first love, my Soulmate. I see her body on the floor, not moving once again. Everyone was laughing at me, I couldn’t hear it, but I could tell, I look pathetic. I hear a voice crawling up my neck and into my ears, “What did you do to her?”
“Killed..she..her body..I didn’t..I didn’t..I DIDN’T MEAN IT!”
I’m pulled back into reality, someone held my hand a bright calming blue, “It’s not real Yana. You’re safe, you’re in the infirmary,” Novus’ voice rings through my ears. Novus, who looks exactly like my love, exactly like her. The room becomes tighter, “I’m not Phoebe.”
Phoebe and Novus. Novus and Phoebe, that’s right. They’re not the same. Two different people, different lives. This is different, I’m safe, safe with Novus in my arms. The area grows, I’m in the infirmary again.Novus was no longer in my arms but laid on her bed, everyone stared at me. Caius was gone, Opal stood waiting for me, “You’re okay now. You’re in the infirmary. Whatever you saw isn’t real.”
My voice wavered it’s sore and scratchy, “Novus..Novus..I heard,” Rave hovers his hand over mine, being careful not to make contact,
“Novus woke up, she woke up and started talking to you.” He says,
“She’s awake?” I ask,
Rave sighs, “She’s fading in and out. Radial is convinced it’s because of Liam and you.”
“It has to be!” Radial says, “When you’re ready I would love to try my experiment.”
Liam crosses his arms facing away from all of us he huffs until Opal sighs and faces him, “Yes Liam?”
“I don’t understand why Yanamarie is getting all the attention. She just freaked out didn’t she? Novus is actually sick right?”
My body shivers, Rave stands up, “That’s not fair Liam.”
Rave strides over to Liam towering over him. Liam looked up slowly, “What, gonna give me a lecture?”
“No, I’m telling you reality,” He’s now on Liam’s level, sitting on his bed, Liam scoots to the corner of his bed keeping a distance, “Liam, just because you can’t see an illness doesn’t mean it’s not there. Yana, has been touched by the Unspoken’s influence and has trauma. Working with Opal and my mother have taught me that trauma or a mental illness is just as important as a visible illness.”
Opal smiles to herself, I look around the room and that’s when I noticed the look of concern washed over all the Pure Light’s faces. Liam laughs, “Yanamarie isn’t a perfect human being! She’s killed people, she’s hurt people! I’m not working with her.”
“I didn’t say she was perfect,” the cold truth, “but she’s working on it. None of us are perfect humans. I lash out when I’m scared, Radial shuts himself out, it’s not healthy, but at least we know it’s not and are working on it. You’re not perfect Liam, so get the hell over yourself and help bring Novus back.”
Overwhelming silence, Novus giggles in her sleep causing Liam’s face to turn red from embarrassment, “Did she hear you?”
“If she did,” Rave says, “I wouldn’t be surprised if she was laughing at you.”
Everyone shifts allowing Rave to move back into another medical bed that held his book warm, he smiles picking up the book, placing a worn bookmark onto his desired page, he pauses noticing my stares. Closes the book and helps me off the ground, our eyes meet an overwhelming light shines, I move back rubbing my hands, “Thank you, though I don’t understand why you would stand up for me.”
“I’m not sure honestly. I feel like I should be pissed at you for hurting Novus, but there’s something deep down telling me to trust you. Same for Radial I suppose.”
I look at Radial who hid in the corner when the arguing started, Raisa sat beside him smiling at me, “Radial,” I say, “I want to try and wake Novus up.”
His face perks up like a puppy being offered treats, he runs up clapping his hands together, “Wonderful! We’ll just force Liam if he doesn’t want to help.”
“No,” Liam grumbles, standing up from his bed, “I’ll help.” Liam makes eye contact with Rave who smiles, Liam rolls his eyes and offers his hand to Radial, I do as well. Radial shakes his head pointing to Novus.
I slowly pick up Novus’ hand, our eyes glow a bright blue, calming, but sad. Liam takes her other hand and for a moment I felt an overwhelming sense of cowardice. His eyes shine yellow. Novus shifts her eyes open glowing a bright green, she winces. Everyone shouts her name, she moves back holding onto our hands tightly. Radial and Opal move forward, Radial touches her chin and he asks everyone to look away. I close my eyes, but I can feel Novus’ nail digging into my skin, it burns. She doesn’t say anything, but the pain was easy to identify and then, she let go. I hear a thud as her head hits the bed, I open my eyes and Radial is gone. Novus giggles, everyone looks at her in anticipation, “Get the hell over yourself, Rave you know Liam’s a pretty boy he can’t do that!”
Everyone sighs finally being able to breathe, Liam’s face turns bright red, he mumbles and sits on his bed, everyone greets Novus welcoming her, I stand in the back watching her. Wanting to say something, but unable to. The guilt wraps me until the rope is around my neck, choking me, but being cruel enough to let me stay and watch. Everyone leaves, I stay. Radial comes in and begins to take me away from the guilt and then, the guilt speaks, “Yana, I want to talk, for real this time.”
Radial shakes his head telling her to take time and recover, I look at the guilt, smile, and say, “Not now, princess.”
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