Ok, one: I only want oral, two: I didn’t bring condoms! Two nos do not make a yes. You liked that one didn’t you? Don’t lie!

My head just wasn’t in the right place and I was overwhelmed by this sexy-ass man. I didn’t care.

“Come on Papi, make me yours.”

My self-awareness immediately left and I thrusted my dick inside, feeling the sweet warmth of his insides. It was incredible.

“Oh Papi!” he moaned.

I don’t know what came over me but I held his legs unto my shoulders and kept thrusting. My dick was moving in and out faster and faster.

“You like that baby? You like my dick inside of you?” I asked.

(Who the hell is this person? I was possessed by a sex demon. Me? Dirty Talk? What??)

“Yes, Papi!”

I move in closer, shoving my dick even further inside. His hands clawed at my back.

“Mmm, ahhh, yes” he moaned, cut off by my lips reaching his.

We flip over and Fernando laid up on his fours.

I pulled out my dick and watched as milky liquid oozed out of his hole. It was mesmerizing.

I entered him once more and I never wanted it to end, well, that was until I was on the verge of bursting inside of him.

“I’m gonna cum!”

I instantly pull out and Fernando rolls over getting up on his knees looking like a dog begging for a treat. I didn’t know where to bust, it was my first time so I just pictured what people would do in porn.

Fernando was ready and opened his mouth wide with his tongue out. I guess he wants it in his mouth, I thought.

I could feel my blood pumping and in seconds as if I just had an exorcism I came in Fernando’s mouth.

“Ahhh!” I exhaled.

The energy I once had left my body and I collapsed unto the bed next to Fernando. He licks up the cum that is around his mouth and SWALLOWS the whole thing. I was surprised but too exhausted to react. Sex. Is. Tiring.

“Let me clean you up.”

“Wha-” Fernando’s mouth was once again all over my dick. My dick was literally throbbing I could not take anymore. It was sensitive as hell.

He finishes and lays unto my chest, “That was amazing.”

My senses were coming back to me and that’s when it hit me. I’M NOT A VIRGIN ANYMORE. I’d say that I was in shock more than anything else, I remember thinking, That just happened…

I didn’t really have much to say, I was tired as hell so I went to put my clothes on. As I reached my clothes Fernando laid his hand on my ass.

Surprised, I jumped a little and Fernando smirked, “Maybe I can fuck you next time.”

I was so over it at this point, I replied, “Yeah, maybe next time.” and put on the fakest smile I could.

The car ride home was silent and I just stared out the window.

We arrived at my house and I smiled, “That was fun.”

“Yeah, I can’t wait for next time.”

There was no next time. We kissed goodbye and that was the last time I had his tongue in my mouth.

I entered my home quietly and went upstairs towards my room almost passing my parents when I was stopped by my mom. It was early in the evening around this time.

“How was your day?”

“Good,” I replied, making sure I was at a safe distance so she wouldn’t smell me. I felt so dirty.

“What’d you guys do?

“Just played videogames and watched Netflax.”

“Your dinner is in the fridge.

“Thanks, mom.”

I quickly entered my room plopping my string bag somewhere inside my forest of a closet, grabbed a t-shirt and a pair of Calvin Kriens, and went for the bathroom locking the door behind me.

I threw my clothes down and rested upon my kitchen counter staring at myself in the mirror. I could feel the weight of the world falling unto me. The flow of water seeped through my tear ducts with a whole whirl of questions filling my head but one, in particular, was louder than the rest:

What the fuck just happened?

The fact that I was no longer a virgin shook me to the core. In a matter of an hour or two, my V card disappeared forever. Maybe it wasn’t the fact that I wasn’t a virgin. What really hit me was the fact that I didn’t plan on losing my virginity that day, but I did. With a stranger, who was a man.

I always thought that losing my virginity would be special, with someone I love but it wasn’t and I hated that. I’m a hopeless romantic and Yes, I know I could've stopped or I knew what I was getting into but it was just the rush I felt. I’m impulsive so I can get myself riled up easily and that I did. I was just annoyed at myself. I told myself my first body would be a girl but it was anything but.

The fact that I just recently came in terms with my sexuality meant that there were still things that I would tell myself holding on to any “straightness” that I had. With one of the things being that I’d lose my virginity to a girl. I grew up in a religious home resulting in me being homophobic during my early years. So, when I finally came in terms with my sexuality after denying it for so long, it was a journey in itself.

As cliche as it sounds, I felt like I was a different person now. I put less significance in sex with me having a new fuck it attitude. I thought I can’t turn back so might as well keep going. I didn’t need to be in love, I just wanted sex, to feel good. I did need some time though so after I cleaned myself I laid upon my bed and deleted Sexr.

But what I didn’t know was that sex was around the corner thanks to my other friend, Dater: The Let’s-go-on-a-date-but-really- just-have-sex app.