3rd July 2020, 8PM BST

Him

I'm not in a good mood today.

For starters, we're recruiting new year 9s and 10s to be in the Group. One year 9, three year 10s. I hate them. They're just annoying.

Secondly, Boyfriend is being shit.

I mean, this is kinda what happens when you date a Group boy, especially a year 13, but still. We got into a fight today. It was about some petty thing, like how I smiled at someone who wasn't in the Group. He called me pathetic, said that I was ungrateful for him choosing me, said that he could start a rumour that would ruin my life and to be honest, he probably would.

I just don't know. This is pretty normal at my school but what about everywhere else? Is it normal for you guys? Please leave a comment.

I know this isn't my usual post but I just need to get some stuff off my chest.

k,

thx,

Bye bitches.

I lean back in my chair and sigh. Is this what it's come to? Asking people for help? I check my phone and keep waiting for the comments to roll in. My screen lights up as they start to trickle in.

Just break up with him

It's not that easy. It'll make my life hell. More comments pop up.

I totally get it, it's not OK for him to say those things, he kinda seems like a dickhead. Just remember u have us

I'm going through the same thing, just stay strong and know that we're here.

It's OK babes, just DM me when u feel like it

I'm filled with hope as I see the comment from Leigh, my friend. We met when we were 12 on Roblox and now we chat all the time on Instagram DM. I keep scrolling through the comments, smiling as I see positive messages about people going through the same thing.

You're school seems kinda messed up, that's totally not ok

Bitch where can I find this boyfriend of yours? I need to teach him a lesson

ur just lying for attention, everyone does it for likes.

My heart sinks. I know I shouldn't let it get to me but it still hurts. I'm not lying, don't they understand that?

I mute my notifications and go onto Instagram. I start looking through people's stories. There's Maya in the park with Liz and Kate. They look like they're having fun. I wish I was there. Everyone says I'm lucky to be popular, that I must have the best life because I'm considered the prettiest girl in school. I don't think I'm the prettiest girl in school. I feel like the ugliest.

I turn off my phone and stare out the window, worrying about what will happen with Sam tomorrow.