Read The Underbosses Psychiatrist (MXM) :: 12 - Chapter Twelve - Zev Martin's Point Of View.

Everyone was over budget this week and Alexi was utterly miserable to everyone and anything. It was odd to see him this way, normally he did a small amount of yelling and got over the budget, this time no. He was using violence to solve his problems. He threw a coffee mug made of ceramic at Jackson this morning in a meeting. Andrei got a stapler thrown at him for making a comment about his budget and poor Creed got a knee to his nuts for trying to calm Alexi down. He was very hostile today. Grabbing a hot coffee, ebony in colour and taking it to Alexi's office with me as a piece offering. His door was slightly open when I knocked and I watched him pick up a bottle getting ready to sail it my way.

"Alexi its just me. I brought you coffee."

"Come in."

He set down his weapon and gently took the coffee from me. The dark circles around his eyes were so much worse than normal. He looked like he hadn't slept in days.

"Alexi when was the last time you slept?"

"I don't know, yesterday, maybe the day before."

"Why haven't you been sleeping?"

"I can't."

"Why not?"

"I don't sleep well. I wake up and I can feel his hands all over me. I hate going to sleep. He's not dead in my nightmares."

"Have you tried any sleeping pills for this?"

"No. I refuse. Too dangerous to take."

"Maybe you should look into getting some sleeping pills, you clearly aren't sleeping and it's affecting your moods."

"I'm exhausted and I want to sleep but it's not worth the horrours I see when I close my eyes. If anyone will understand that feeling, I'm positive it's you Zev."

"I do understand the fear of not waiting to sleep. But you do need to. It's an important bodily function. Stop fighting the sleep, Alexi. Go see the medic and get some sleeping pills. That is not a recommendation, that is a demand. As your psychiatrist, of course."

"Why must you force me to do things I don't want to."

"That's because I am your psychiatrist first and your friend second when you're unstable."

"I am not unstable!"

"Really? So that is why you've gone from just yelling over budgets to violence and abuse of your friends?"

"I didn't mean to. He pissed me off, Jackson I mean."

"And what about Andrei or Creed?"

"Andrei deserves everything he gets, it's only a shame he didn't get hit."

"And Creed, Did he deserve the knee to the nuts for trying to care for you?"

"Well, no. But he was fucking smothering me. He has an obsession with me and I don't understand it. I don't get why he always around and all over me."

"Have you apologized to him, Alexi?"

"No. and I won't."

"So, If he leaves you all alone in your space would you be ok with that, Maybe that's what you want?"

"I don't know what I want!"

"Alexi there is no need to be yelling right now."

Alexi sighed. Laying his head on his desk.

"I'm just so tired, I just want to sleep forever, you know."

"That's not healthy thoughts Alexi."

"I can never escape my father. Not even when I sleep."

"Stay here. I'll be right back."

"Alright."

I was going to do something I really shouldn't do, but he was in distress and needed some fucking sleep before he just lost his shit. Jackson was at the kitchen table eating lunch by himself since Emerson wanted Rosie for a little bit.

"Hey what's up?"

"Hey. I'm just grabbing something for Alexi, taking it to him, then I'll be back."

Going through the medicine cabinet I found a few different types of sleeping pills. Both self-prescribed and doctor prescribed. The only ones I didn't take with me were the ones I was currently talking on a regular schedule. Jackson was leaned against the kitchen table when I came out.

"What are you doing Zev?"

"Helping Alexi."

"Is this legal?"

"Is anything you do legal?"

"Touche"

"I'm not doing anything that can hurt him. He needs sleeping pills and I am allowed to prescribe them he just won't get them. So I'm bringing the ones I have to him. So he won't have a choice."

"I see."

Taking all the bottles with me I walked back to Alexi's office. The door was open and he was still working on paperwork. Dropping all the bottles on the side of the desk he just looked at me.

"There are all your options for sleeping pills. Pick a kind and take one and go to sleep."

"Now?"

"Yes. Right, this minute Alexi. You're nasty when you have no sleep."

He looked at the bottle before he grabbed the smallest sized pills. He sighed in defeat and took two pills swallowing them with coffee.

"Now off to bed."

I shoved the bottle of the pills into his hand took the rest back with me as I watched him walk off to his section. I made sure his office door was closed before I walked back to Jackson's section. Once I was back home I put the rest of the pills away and relaxed on the bed.

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I woke up the sound of Creed talking to Jackson in the kitchen. Getting up and walked to the kitchen and Creed actually smiled at me when he saw me.

"Alexi is sleeping soundly."

"Good."

"I saw the pills on the nightstand."

"Was he showing any signs of distress in his sleep?"

"No, not even a small bit."

"Good. He needs a good rest."

"He really does, He threw a coffee cup at me. He's never been that violent with me."

"He kneed me in the nuts Jackson, stop whining about the fucking coffee cup."

"He knows what he did was wrong, just for your information."

Jackson just sipped his drink, which was a bottle of beer. It was strange to see him drinking beer, I didn't even know he drank beer.