I looked at the screen and saw that it was Al who called. I didn’t have time to wonder why he called me because I started to panic. A Handsome Boy called me and the first thing I did was scream at him all the things I would never want anyone to hear especially not a person I meet one day ago. Damn.

„Shit!“ I spitted out in my panic. 1… 2… 3… 1… 2… 3… I counted in my head, trying to calm me down.

‚You are what you are‘ ‚Everything's ok‘ ‚No need to panic on the titanic‘ I repeated in my head until I was calm enough to speak up.

Al hadn’t said anything other than the soft ‚Kai?’ when he stopped me from embarrassing myself more than I already did.

„… You aren’t my dad.“ I sighed half out of relieve because my dad didn’t call me, half out of discomfort.

„No… I guess I had a really bad timing. Sorry.“ Al added with a voice who sounded truly sorry mixed with a bit Uneasiness.

We stayed in uncomfortable silence for a while than Al took heart and broke the silence:

„So… I wanted to ask if you are free this Friday. My Sister wants to throw a welcome Party and I thought it would be cool if you came I doesn’t know anyone here anyway…“ I felt so awkward and wanted to slap myself for not looking who called me. Because of my panicking and the urge to get out of this situation asap, I realized the mistake I did not until I made it.

I said „Sure!“

Before I could make up an excuse and take the commitment back I just gave Al said: „Thats great see you on Friday then! I text you the address.“ With so much anticipation like a child for their birthday cakes. Great. Now I felt bad to say I can’t come after he was so excited about it. But wasn’t it weird anyway? Why would you want to invite a person you don’t even know to a party and get all excited over it? He really is a strange guy Al. He probably hadn’t heard the rumors yet because he transferred here. But when he would, he would probably take his invitation back so I can relax.

But then again if he doesn’t know anyone here he might don’t hear the rumors until Friday.

I was so lost in thoughts that I forget that Al was still on the phone with me and jumped as he talked to me again.

„You sure you’re alright? With coming to the party I mean, If you don’t want to come thats ok.“ He lets out a nervous chuckle and adds: „I would be sad, though“

„Its fine. See you on Friday.“ I said.

Damn what was I thinking? This would have been the best opportunity to cancel everything. Two Letters N. O. Why was it so hard for me to say that? For real I never was that kind of person who would say yes to everything even if I don’t want to. So how could the emotions of one stranger effect me that much that I say yes to a party? A PARTY! That is the first place where assholes come together. If you want to avoid being judged, talking to assholes and letting people drag you down, there is one rule: Avoid Partys at all costs.

„Thats Great! … So if you ever want to talk to someone about your dad or something, you can call me. We might don't know each other yet, but sometimes just talking helps a lot.“ Again the nervous laughter. „See you on Friday then.“ Al said after he waited for an answer from me that I didn't gave.

„Thanks and bye.“ I said feeling way to uncomfortable to talk anymore to him. So I hung up before he could say something else. I know that might was rude but I didn't care right now, I just wanted to stop this Conversation before I could do something worse than I already did.

I seriously need to avoid Al. This Human was not good for me. He literally made me throw my principles overboard and made me step out of my comfort zone within a few seconds. That was way to much power for one human being.

Yet I still sat here with my phone in the hand, planning what to wear at this f*cking Party.