It was my turn to repay him. I baked some sweets and pastries, and roasted turkey carrots brown rice, mushrooms, onion’s bell peppers, and potatoes.

After now we're lying in bed watching a romance movie. The empty plates from dinner sat on the nightstand. I was staring at the screen lying on my side.

He was behind me; he started to rub on my thigh, which made me quiver. I had not been touched in that way in a long time. I was slightly tipsy from the ice bar.

He rubbed his hand from my thigh to my booty. I continued watching TV As he began to kiss on my neck. I liked being touched by his gentle hands. Which made me moan then giggle. He rubbed his hands all up and down my pajamas. I didn’t mind; we were still watching the movie.

He continued to rub on me. I reached back, wrapping his arms around me kept watching the movie as we cuddled.

Suddenly he was hovering over me, looking into my eyes. He just kept looking at me just like the actor did in the movie we were watching, and I swooned over him. Did I mention that I was watching my favorite film Love&basketball?

Kiss me, you handsome man, I thought in my head!

He kissed me. His lips stuck to mines, my silky pajamas became wet. I rubbed on his back as he deepened the kiss. I moaned into his mouth. He ended our kiss with a small nibble on my bottom lip. The kiss felt like the kiss meant to be, I could see myself in a relationship with Sam. He squeezed on my breast and pulled down my pajamas and his pants. He hung over me with his manhood erect and ready for action. However, I was not ready yet.

Not for sex, at least it was too soon. “Wait, stop!” “Let’s not...” I said. “I do not want to mess this up,” I said. “You won't mess anything up, love,” he tried to convince me. I wanted to have sex with Sam; that wasn’t the issue; the issue was what would happen after? Were we going to be in a relationship, or was this a one-night stand? That’s something that I didn’t want… I wanted him forever.

He completely ignored me and separated my thighs, looking in my eyes seductively the whole time. I bit my lip, closing my legs back. This was a hard fight, I wanted to, so bad my vagina was calling out for him, but I shouldn’t I didn’t want him to have sex with me then leave it would destroy my feelings that’s the last thing that I needed.

He kissed all over my stomach; his hot mouth heated my body, pelvis, and thighs, I put my hand on my pussy, blocking his face as he kissed me, I became weak. “don’t be like that” He kissed and sucked all over me, sending me in a frenzy he was teasing me. Oh god, fuck it give me pleasure, you handsome man! “Ooh, yes, don't stop!” I yelled, he had me horny, and I couldn’t resist anymore. Just do it! Fuck me! My vagina screamed.

He kissed me on my stomach and went l0wer, I held my breath. I knew what was coming next. He rested his head on my hands; I closed my eyes and slowly moved my hands; it has been so long since anybody had gone down there. The situation was intense because he didn’t utter a word the whole time it was all action, his eyes studied mines, and he kept smirking at me. His silence made him more intimidating as he looked at me like a meal. Yes, sexy man, come and eat me! My pussy screamed out loudly.

I laid there awkwardly, remembering that I didn’t shave. As Sam made love to my pussy, I squeezed on my breast as he made me nut 4 times back to back, each time I came, he seemed more experienced. He held on to my thighs and kept looking up into my eyes with his face and chin shiny. The first time he made me come, it didn’t count, arousal wise I was already there. The second time I pressed my pussy against his face begging for more. The other two were him, he figured out my buttons.

After he finished, he slid on a condom. “Wait! Sam, let's not go any further pleased!” I begged hoarsely, “I'm not ready for that I said to him.” “I already put the condom on, he said irritated.” he had finally spoken. “I told you no before you even started,” I said, chuckling.” “Yeah, but you also said, please don't stop,” he said, licking his lips and smirking mocking me.”

He climbed on top of me, sucking on my neck again; I rode with the feel-good, “ooh that feels good!” I said, but something didn’t feel right. I snapped out of the lust as I felt him pushing at my entrance.

Selfish, I know, but I didn’t want to lose him. I want-ed sex between us to be more than a one-night stand. The way he ate my pussy flawlessly, I already knew what type of person he was, not the settling down type. How many pussies has he did this too, I was lost and catching feelings already this wasn’t good? Was I really this bad already? I felt crazy like I just wanted to cuddle with him and not let him go.

I couldn’t do this to myself: I turned sex mode off, and I was serious, if he was willing to stop, leave, and come back tomorrow, I promise that I would give him myself permanently my ass pussy whatever. I write about this in my blog; it has to be real. (The waiting for the present)

“Yeah... Sam, but that was different.” “I did say please don’t stop but not like that…”

I told him, avoiding eye contact; this was awkward. It happened it was over he was going to leave and never talk to me again. I sounded like I was playing him, and that wasn’t the case.

So be it, I don’t want to fuck him not yet. I took a deep breath. I felt like this was going to be our last goodbye

“Okay, it is time for you to go...” I said to him. “Oh, so you're just going to get yours, and I do not get mines.” “Damn, that's selfish,” he said with an attitude. “See, yall, women are all alike!” He snapped. “Whoa, excuse me I was about to offer to give you head, but fuck you with that attitude get out!”

“Well, like I said before, I already have the condom on,” he said. “Well, take it off!” I snapped, pointing to the exit! Sam leave before you say the wrong thing, please! The perfect vision that I had of you is fading. Get up and calm him down, don’t let him leave! I thought to myself.

No! He snapped back! He grabbed my neck and pushed his thumb into my windpipe. “I can't...” breathe! I yelled, fighting him off! He backhanded me making my face sting and eye swell.

He threw me on the bed and pinned my arms above my head. He had big hands. Because he only used one to hold me down. His other hand held his dick. “No...” I squeezed out. “Hmm,” he groaned, forcing his way through. He fucked me until he finished, I felt every second of his forced session, my body shook as Sam banged into me, he strengthed his grip on my throat, getting tighter by the second. I really couldn’t breathe or talk. I looked around at the ugly green paint everything was blurry, was this going to be the last thing that I ever see? I tried to cry out, but I couldn’t even swallow. I could not breathe. Therefore, I literally passed out.

Saturday -July 7th

I woke up; I felt terrible my throat as throbbing. I ran into the bathroom to look at myself, and I had a bruise around my neck and face my eye was swollen, and my lips were severely cracked... I remembered everything up until the point when I blacked out. My body felt dirty! My makeup smeared across my face, and my hair was a mess, I got into the tub and cried.

Days went by, I needed mom and dad, I really missed them! I needed them, “Why did they have to...?” I cried. My vagina was swollen shut; it stung every time I walked. I laid in bed and went into a deep depression, Every noise I heard scared me, The worst part is I could not remember a thing. His face was a fading memory. I was sore, and it stung when I washed, I even had bruises on my wrist. 

Friday

July 13th

I closed my eyes; I had been staying up all night, unable to sleep. I could not look people in the eyes. Therefore, I didn’t go outside. I needed to know what happened. I yawned because I had been fighting my sleep. I kept having this terrible nightmare:

It starts and ends the same way, no matter how I try to change it. Sam’s hand gripped my neck, causing extreme pain. I rolled my eyes as he banged inside of me. “Ooh! Yes, Sam,” I moaned as he thrust inside of me.” you're enjoying yourself now?” “Yes!” I squeezed his ass cheeks. He let go of my neck and proceeded to fuck me good. Sweat dripped from his forehead. “Don't stop!” I screamed! “Fuck me harder!” I moaned! His body smacked against mines. “Give me that dick!” I cried, clawing his back. He pounded inside of me, slowing down. “No, don't stop!” I growled. “I told you beautiful I just wanted to make you feel good,” he said, getting up sweating. “Yes, and I love this!” I smiled. “We've been at this for hours,” he said, coming to a stop. “Let me then...” I said, straddling him. He held on to my thighs as I rode him. “Damn!” He moaned. “Ooh, yes!” I held on to his chest.

“Fuck!” He groaned. “Don't you nut yet?” I yelled at him! “I Need to get home to my wife,” he snapped. Wife? I asked, upset. “I can't... I’m sorry,” He whined, trying to get up. “Please don’t stop! I felt my climax approaching. I grabbed his neck, pinning him down as I sunk my teeth into his neck. “Ahhh fuck I love you!” He yelled. “I'm about to,” he whined as he filled me up. get the fuck out!” I yelled in frustration. “See all yall women are all alike selfish,” he yelled. No, I cried! Which turns into screaming, then I wake up.