Dorin came over. He and they played a few rounds of PvP on Halo before disappearing outside onto the roof letting their sibling sleep in the playroom to watch TV.
Dorin was their best friend since, for a while really. Dorin knew about what happens behind closed doors at their house. What they go through mentally that no one else does. Dorin knows better than anyone that when a family who says they support and help their child, sometimes it's just a false set to get what the parents want out of the child in the end. But not all families are like that no. Just some.
"I really like your soft yellow curtains with white daisies on them you know. They are the coolest thing I've seen in someone's room. Very I appealing. Is it a happy visual stim for you?"
They nodded in response, looking back through their window to see their curtains.
"Yes, very much a happy one. They feel really nice too. Silky almost."
Dorin smiled at them.
"Hey, I have a question."
"Okay?"
It was quiet for some time. Dorin was laying back now on the rooftop, arms behind his head as the stars above him, the vast open galaxy above was just not all in view.
Click. Snap.
"You talk so much like you aren't yourself. Is that because you don't feel like yourself or that you just like talking like that because it makes you, you?"
They were quiet for a while too. Thinking the question over and over again wondering that too. They never felt not themself, but sometimes they wondered what it would be like to be able to see themself outside of the body and be out in the open and see the world openly with no boundaries.
"I think I just talk like this because I want to. It happens alot when I'm sad. I talk as though I'm someone else. Third-Person. I think that way too. It makes the world alot more appealing too. Kinda like what you said about the curtains."
Dorin sat up and smiled,"Can you describe the world in that tone then? I want to experience it!"
They were quiet for another around. Being able to speak out loud like they do in front of someone isn't normal to them. Out of the routine.
"They watched the world around them. One being an unkept always chaotic routine in life. The other, always a routine. Nothing different. Just like the world on a daily basis. Even with itty-bitty changes to it, everything is still the same. Same wind flows, breathing, sun and moon rising and setting. The stars burst, dieing away. Fading out like the sun making the colours on a plastic swing set fade in time. Nothing never changes majorly."
Dorin laughed,"Dude, that sounds so weird! But cool! I understood what you were saying, but the speech was so unusual. But I think it's pretty radical. Is that how you see the world too?"
They nodded. Everything around them was at some point third person if not first person too. Everything to them was third person. That's how they coped with the world around them. With the sad days, The overload they would normally have.
But, but, their peach toned room with the soft yellow curtains with white daisies made them feel better always. If any other good stimming items or routines didn't help, the bedroom and the curtains always did.
"Hey, I have another question."
"Yes?"
"Why haven't you told me your name even though we have been friends for so long? I haven't heard it anywhere from our friends either, it's surprising."
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